[peggy]

Sammie, sorry to read that you will leave.

[bobie]

Sammie i hope you will reconsider, would be a shame to see you go, but ultimately that is a decision you need to make for yourself, for what its worth i took on board your and clara's advice about watching how hormones be it herbal or synthetic make you feel, im not one for many words so will just say the best of luck to you whatever you end up doing

[SarahSchilling]

This place just got a lot more boring! Sorry to see ya leave.

Ah well, I feel the same way about this board pretty much. We'll still talk.

[myboobs]

I have been coming to this board for a long time. In that time I have gone through many changes. When I first arrived here a few members at that time warned me (or tried to warn me) of the power of these herbs to dramatically change a person, and to be very careful about knowing what I was doing. I dismissed their warnings, and in my mind knew better. I was wrong.
As the last four years have unfolded, their predictions have come to pass. I am wiser now. I do not in any way regret the changes that have taken place, nor would I change anything. I have shared probably more than I should have shared about my journey and have no doubt some grew weary of my verbosity long ago. (Somebody tell that bitch to shut up! )
No matter, I shared because I felt a record of my experiences might be of benefit to someone, and, frankly because I needed the opportunity to do so to help me deal with that journey. In that time I have received, with few exceptions a love and support I could not have survived without. I am forever grateful for that and all the wonderful people and friends I have found here.
I find now that when I counsel the same caution to others I am met with the same reaction others received from me when I began. I understand. Clara asked me some time ago whether I felt I had "outgrown" this board. I laughed it off at the time, since this place has been my online home for so long. But I guess I was wrong.
As others have pointed out, this board is for NBE. I have moved beyond that now. I do not know yet where this road will lead and that is somewhat scary, but I know it is the road I should be on.
I now feel it is time for me to leave. My situation is now far different from that of so many arriving now and I feel I am only in the way. I shall still be at SCC and I still very much hope to meet all of you there if you are going. If you need, please contact me by email and I will reply. For those who need a friend I am still here. I did not want to just disappear as others have done, hence this posting.
I shall miss this family. I wish you all nothing but the very best.
And now I need to put on some loud music. I need to dance....

Hugs

Samantha

shit !! u making us all emotional

[GoneGirl]

I have been coming to this board for a long time. In that time I have gone through many changes. When I first arrived here a few members at that time warned me (or tried to warn me) of the power of these herbs to dramatically change a person, and to be very careful about knowing what I was doing. I dismissed their warnings, and in my mind knew better. I was wrong.
As the last four years have unfolded, their predictions have come to pass. I am wiser now. I do not in any way regret the changes that have taken place, nor would I change anything. I have shared probably more than I should have shared about my journey and have no doubt some grew weary of my verbosity long ago. (Somebody tell that bitch to shut up! )
No matter, I shared because I felt a record of my experiences might be of benefit to someone, and, frankly because I needed the opportunity to do so to help me deal with that journey. In that time I have received, with few exceptions a love and support I could not have survived without. I am forever grateful for that and all the wonderful people and friends I have found here.
I find now that when I counsel the same caution to others I am met with the same reaction others received from me when I began. I understand. Clara asked me some time ago whether I felt I had "outgrown" this board. I laughed it off at the time, since this place has been my online home for so long. But I guess I was wrong.
As others have pointed out, this board is for NBE. I have moved beyond that now. I do not know yet where this road will lead and that is somewhat scary, but I know it is the road I should be on.
I now feel it is time for me to leave. My situation is now far different from that of so many arriving now and I feel I am only in the way. I shall still be at SCC and I still very much hope to meet all of you there if you are going. If you need, please contact me by email and I will reply. For those who need a friend I am still here. I did not want to just disappear as others have done, hence this posting.
I shall miss this family. I wish you all nothing but the very best.
And now I need to put on some loud music. I need to dance....

Hugs

Samantha

Oh, dear. This is bitter sweet. Bitter in the way your departure was triggered, which I won't dwell on, but sweet to see that you have completed this part of your transgender journey to a place that has brought you certainty and greater tranquility in your life.

I'm disappointed that I will not be reading your posts here any longer. For me, your posts comprised a model for transition that I trusted to guide me on my own journey. You know how quickly I have progressed these past 8 months, Sammie. It's been like a whirlwind. I could never have done it without your example, your coaching, and your loving concern. Yes, I benefited from the words of others on this board, as well. I won't try to name them for fear of leaving someone important out, but I will say that no one helped me break the shackles of my GD like you did. Thank you.

It's not a personal loss that I feel, we will stay in contact and continue to dialog on other online venues. I think the loss is going to be felt more by those on this board that will not have the benefit of your wise counsel, not to mention the fun times we've had. As sister Sarah mentioned, "This place just got a lot more boring!"

What about me? I don't know. I'm licking my wounds, too. Nobody likes to feel unwelcome. I think a forum is what the posters make of it. If those living in the past don't like the current postings, maybe they should be more proactive in determining the course of the conversation. I have over 1500 posts in less than 9 months. You've posting even more than I. That kind of participation is bound to have an effect on the direction of the forum, and piss off some who, I suspect, feel overshadowed.

The fact is, I'm right behind you, Sammie. If you've outgrown this forum, I suppose I will, too, very soon. Maybe the time is now. I have to give my inflamed emotions time to calm down before making any decisions. There may still be value for me here; I'm not sure.

Love and hugs,

Clara

[echapman]

Clara just summed up what I told Sarah about you earlier today... It's not going to be the same. So many great people are considering leaving the forum now that I don't know if I want to stay either. I know I'm a GG, but I can't stay in a place that attempts to segregate and minimize some of it's most valuable members.

They should sticky your thread. A lot of people who will come here will appreciate your guidance even if you aren't here to respond anymore.

[Heather-H]

Sammie, this is going to be short and sweet for now, I will post a proper reply tomorrow. I am in tears right now and my DW cannot understand why I am typing but my eyes are so water logged.

Many before me have expressed our loss on this wonderful forum by your departure. Some people have a natural aptitude to convey and communicate, you are one of those people. I have always felt so warm in your Ciber Embrace just like I do with Clara.

I am sorry I must contine this tomorrow when my emotions have settled. God, what is happening to me right now? I have not posted for two weeks because I didn't feel as stable as I feel I should be and now I appear to have stepped back in time.

May your God be with you Sammie, I so envy the road your on.

With much love
Heather XXX

[myboobs]

tell me if i am wrong .
we all come and join the forum for a journey that we do not know where it takes us or the final destination.
all said we make many many connections with other members and bidding goodbye is like loosing a family member.
everyone makes their final decisions but one can always pop in to say hello and give updates / help new members as the experience gained by long time members is invaluable .
my experience is it takes time to trust someone but sometimes you just click with people . i talked to one member on the phone and it felt like we were on same wave length and seem to understand what each was saying to other.
would we get that elsewhere ? i believe not
i hope sammie reads this and takes it on board as he would be dearly missed not just by me but by many a member here .

NOW I WILL SHUT UP AND GO SIT IN THE CORNER

[Heather-H]

Wow Myboobs, I in no way could have put it better. Clearly your message was to the point and powerful. I have been spared the embarrassment of making a fool of myself.
I am absolutely sure the person you speak of re the phone conversation feels the very same about you. Your humour is always appreciated and I know that Sammie amongst others frequently referred to it.

Thank you dear friend for saving me

Sammie, further to your PM's we will love and miss you but I know you will keep a watching brief and always be the Guardian Angel.

I'll leave it alone at this point and reflect in the words of my dear friend Myboobs.

May God bless you all.

Love Heather XXX

[AlexisM]

Sammie,

Sorry to see you take off. I was looking forward to your good advice. When the time is right please come back.