21-11-2016, 12:23 PM
Something`s changed, something I can`t exactly explain, but its a bit like Strength though not in any Male understanding of the word.
I noticed it when I started taking Estrogen based substances and really noticed it when I went on HRT, I`m really Not the same person I was when I started any of this.
I`d noticed that I began to care less and less what people thought of me as being feminine, I began taking what I back then would have considered "Risks".
Maybe a little make up on, or jewelry, or a Bra that was clearly visible under my t-shirt each time that I went out, perhaps I carried myself in a more feminine way or styled my hair in a clearly Female fashion.
Lots of little "risks". I began to get "brave" and combine these at times and still no backlash or even strange looks, my new attitude was paying off!?
well Today, for the first time Ever I went out as Katie walked a whole block to the post office, took my money out and walked home!
I`v been out to an LGBT group with MeganJ last week, but it`s almost a false setting for a true test.
I live right in the middle of town and it`s a Rough area! but no one looked twice! and I was actively looking for just that, but Nothing!?
It would Seem at least that I "pass", but the most wonderfull thing about the whole excersize was that I did it without prompting, without any real Fear, with this new "strength" that I mentioned above.
I have no idea what`s happening to me!???
have I gone completely Crazy and the hormones screwed my brain up? have I got a death wish I know nothing about? is this all perfectly "Normal" and no ones bothered to me about it, is it something that`s known but never spoken of? (so I`m probably breaking a rule right now, LOL)
for clarity sakes I`ll talk in the third person here, it feels like "she" has gotten stronger, like Iv walked through a door, turned around and the door has vanished now. can hormones give you Confidence? I`d find that hard to beleive.
I have No male defenses up any longer and haven`t for some time now, I have no known defenses at all any more nor the "protection" of testosterone, and yet I feel more confident and strong than I Ever did as "Him"?
I don`t recognise myself anymore, but I like the person I`m becoming (not in a Vain way).
can HRT Really be responsible for this?
and where will it lead me next?
and this isnt a Negative post by any means, I`m loving every second of this journey, it`s Truly magical!
I noticed it when I started taking Estrogen based substances and really noticed it when I went on HRT, I`m really Not the same person I was when I started any of this.
I`d noticed that I began to care less and less what people thought of me as being feminine, I began taking what I back then would have considered "Risks".
Maybe a little make up on, or jewelry, or a Bra that was clearly visible under my t-shirt each time that I went out, perhaps I carried myself in a more feminine way or styled my hair in a clearly Female fashion.
Lots of little "risks". I began to get "brave" and combine these at times and still no backlash or even strange looks, my new attitude was paying off!?
well Today, for the first time Ever I went out as Katie walked a whole block to the post office, took my money out and walked home!
I`v been out to an LGBT group with MeganJ last week, but it`s almost a false setting for a true test.
I live right in the middle of town and it`s a Rough area! but no one looked twice! and I was actively looking for just that, but Nothing!?
It would Seem at least that I "pass", but the most wonderfull thing about the whole excersize was that I did it without prompting, without any real Fear, with this new "strength" that I mentioned above.
I have no idea what`s happening to me!???
have I gone completely Crazy and the hormones screwed my brain up? have I got a death wish I know nothing about? is this all perfectly "Normal" and no ones bothered to me about it, is it something that`s known but never spoken of? (so I`m probably breaking a rule right now, LOL)
for clarity sakes I`ll talk in the third person here, it feels like "she" has gotten stronger, like Iv walked through a door, turned around and the door has vanished now. can hormones give you Confidence? I`d find that hard to beleive.
I have No male defenses up any longer and haven`t for some time now, I have no known defenses at all any more nor the "protection" of testosterone, and yet I feel more confident and strong than I Ever did as "Him"?
I don`t recognise myself anymore, but I like the person I`m becoming (not in a Vain way).
can HRT Really be responsible for this?
and where will it lead me next?
and this isnt a Negative post by any means, I`m loving every second of this journey, it`s Truly magical!