Hi Sloppyassho
I've been at NBE for a little while, I am 41, married with a son, and I have no intention to transition for many reasons (starting from the fact that I don't believe I am in the wrong body). I am tipping the point of B cups this year, so I think I am right at the point when things become hard to hide. So, here are my answers:
1. For the guys that "want to stay male", is it difficult to stop once you start? I could see myself having a hard time stopping once I start seeing real results
Yes, it is difficult. It may be more or less difficult depending on the reason why you want breasts. I want them for a fetish, I like to crossdress, and I want to experience what it's like to have them and have them played with. I promised myself I'd stop as soon as they'd show up... and that was about 1 year ago. One important thing to keep in mind is that whatever herb/hormone you use to grow them, you'll be putting estrogens in your body. Estrogens (and Testosterone suppressors) are used to cure depression and mental illnesses in males (that's why many ani-depressant make men grow boobs), so if/when you stop, your body will chemically crave some part of it. It's not a proper addiction, but there is a physical "recall" to it.
2. Do you have a pre determined size you are going for?
We all do. Then, as soon as you have it and the world has not yet crumbled around you, you'll want to get just a bit bigger. Then maybe just another tiny little bit more....
3. Once you start to develop, do you still go shirtless in public?
Before Covid hit, I was merely an A cup. I went shirtless until August last year, when I was just maybe a large A cup. But I am a guy and my ches is wide. I am a tad chubby, so I can still get away with "moobs" a lot. I saw a couple of weird stares at the swimming pool, but one of the reasons why people go to swimming pools is to lose weight and improve their body, so I guess it's not so bad. Now that I am narrowing a full B cup, even if my boobs are not feminine in the slightest, I am wondering what I will be feeling like. Because I have a young son and I may move to a seaside town in the next 5 years, I am becoming a bit self-conscious about going topless. At the same time, I am a very active person while on holiday or outside the office, so dropping the ability to go topless is not something I am looking forward to. Then again, I am not yet stopping with NBE...
4. Do you try to hide your breasts in everyday clothes?
It's Winter and it's Covid time. They are hidden under layers of clothes. But they will soon start to show under t-shirts, so the question "what the heck will I wear in the Summer if I go back to work when it's 30C?" is always present in my mind. I am dreading/waiting for the moment when a sports bra will be neecssary to reduce projection while, at the same time, being obvious under my clothes.
5. Do you become self conscious about your breasts and nipples showing?
See #4. Not for now, in Winter. I haven't had a Summer as a B cup so far.
6. If your married, do you let your wife know your growing your breasts?
I am walking a fine line here. She knows about my CDing. She tolerates it and has no problem seeing me in bras, heels, etc... but no, she has no idea that I am growing boobs intentionally. She knows that I am taking pills to keep a few hair on my head (which is Pueraria Mirifica...) and she knows that this may incur some breast tissue. Last December I budded pretty hard and my chest was in pain. My doctor diagnosed me with gynecomastia so it is official that I have some breast tissue. My wife only told me "If your chest becomes ridiculous or if your boobs get bigger than mine, you'll stop that stuff! Hair or no hair!". I am still waiting for her to be angry/worried to the point of forcing me to stop. When you are a crossdresser, how convenient is it that you grow the boobs you need to fill your bras? The agreement with my wife was always that CDing is only about clothing and I would not attempt any sort of transition. While I am not going to transition, physically or socially, I admit that growing breasts looks pretty damn close to that from someone else's point of view.
Wow, long answers. Sorry if it was boring
Shiraz