[SarahSchilling]

I guess I just never really equated them with being effeminate. They just were. At least in my own voice. But I knew a coupla guys with softer voices but WITHOUT clear enunciation and a slight lisp which I DID equate with being effeminate... But I equated it as more of a "gay" effeminate if you know what I mean. Not feminine, but gay male. And that's not what I'm after! I want a feminine voice, not a gay male voice!

I think the MOST masculine trait of my before voice was the complete lack of any sort of emotional context. It was flat sounding. To me, at least. And that gave it a very masculine sound. The flatness. Those other guys I mentioned? Their voices were definitely not flat.

Wow....you really remind me of myself to a sometimes disturbing degree. The thing I've always been most afraid of...is if I decided to transition, that I'd end up with a "gay" male voice. I'm not bigoted in the least, but I definitely do NOT want one of those lol....I would rather sound like a guy altogether than go there!

As for the complete lack of emotion...I started to say you sounded like a "really bored female" but forgot to. The lack of emotion doesn't make it any more masculine to me, just disinterested.