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Samantha, (Why do I feel like I'm the only one who calls you by your full name?)

I think it's quite possible to maintain feelings of femininity without an AA. I did this for about 17 consecutive months with just pm. Granted, it seem like I had to get a bit creative with my dosage and gradually increase it to maintain the brain rewiring, but it's still doable. However, trying to regain your brain rewiring and libidio simultaneously is a whole different story I think. Taking just pm as my primary driver for NBE and brain rewiring worked I think because I had no regard for my llbidio.

I suppose you could try to find your femininity in areas beyond the herbal and hormonal. Maybe dressing up more or pursuing other types of activities would nurture your feminine self? Otherwise, you may have to make that difficult decision of putting your feminine self on the back burner or be willing to throw your libidio under the hormonal bus so to speak.