[EvaMarie]

Sammie I know the feeling, re the VJ... On one hand its something thats always been an interest to me going so far back I cant remember when it really started... Id say it was when I first heard about the "sex change" operation though.... On the other hand its also something I could never seriously see myself doing...

I was way too hung up on trying to be "normal" and to conform to society and other peoples ideals on who I was supposed to be... Because I was born male I could never be female so my femme identity was just an annoying source of guilt and shame that was getting in the way of my attempts at being a "manly man"...

Until I just couldnt do it anymore that is.... I found myself more and more fascinated by the story's of TS women who went all the way....
It all just seemed so damn hard and tragic to me though, something Id never want to actually do....

Well I guess once you pass the point of no return coming out to family and living more and more full time female, growing real tits, and keeping your hormonal balance biologically female for a while... It all just seems like something thats much more doable.... The question for me used to be WHY??? Now its definitely WHY NOT???

Not an easy thing to deal with thats for sure!!!