[AnnieBL]

And one more.... Just a note...as I mentioned to Clara in a pm this morning, I am trying to eliminate whatever artificial things I have been using in my presentation. This last weekend I eliminated padding in the hips and used not forms, so what you see is real (Ok I admit to a push up bra, but there was very little to it...just a plain Target one). I have not cut my hair in over a year now so I hope to soon be able to drop the wig as well. I am tired of anything artificial and long to be able to look naturally as I feel inside. Sigh...day by day...
Oddly, after saying for all this time I would always remain in "the middle", I find this thought changing. I am beginning to dream long and hard about something I never expected... a vagina. (Blushing a little now...)

Dear Friend Sammie, just as I reckoned that we (A & J) are taking a giant step towards trying to catch up just a little with your shining light, you go and raise the bar. I'll never be able to do without a wig, although I recognize that we're going to have to invest at some point in something a great deal more expensive. As for padding, I was proposing to try both with and without a small amount. You have all along showed your need to strive after perfection, which I can admire and appreciate and enjoy, but most of us have to settle for something less for ourselves. In any case,good fortune in your project and lots of hugs and goodwill.. Don't take too much notice of me today; I'm a little light headed.