[Samantha Rogers]

Well, since I have used this board relentlessly as a source of support and therapy, I guess there is no reason to stop now...
Perhaps, down the road, someone else will glean some assistance from this...
Monday passed with no discussion from my wife, as I assumed it might. I have given her as much space as I can to deal with and try to digest the bomb I dropped on her on Sunday. Her mood, as we dealt with normal living in a house with two offspring has been one of feined normalcy. She runs deep, and has never been one to relish frank and open discussion of difficult and painful psychological issues. And, although she has a beautiful heart, she also possesses a wicked, unpredictable and terrifying mediterranean temper, and has issues of her own she hasnever been able or willing to discuss or work through. My fear is that she will not return to this in discussion, but rather simply try to ignore the (pink) elephant in the room, and that things will simply fester and become poisonous. But I do not honestly know what will come, and she may very well not know either. The last thing I want to do at present is to add even more pressure by forcing a conversation. The waiting, though, is tough, to say the least. I can expect no better, and I know this.
And, I know this process is right and needed...finally...as well as I can know anything, right now, I suppose...but it sure is not easy... If I may have the temerity to suggest anything to anyone at this point it would be this...as terrifying as complete honesty with loved ones (and with ourselves) may be...it is the only right thing to do, whatever the consequences may be. If this causes me to lose what I have, then I expect I never really had it to begin with...
To quote the late great Jim Morrison, "the future's uncertain and the end is always near"
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