[Lisa Lou]

I thought I would start this thread as a reference for my progress, hopefully help/encouragement to others on the journey, and finally, a journal/diary for myself.

I have now been on PM for approximately 4 weeks with SP. My first 3 weeks were 100 mg caps ramping up to 1000 mg PM per day. A week ago I began ramping up to my maintenance level of 2500 - 3000 mg per day. My SP dosage is 1800 mg per day, and I have other items to augment the PM I will be adding over the next week or two.

My starting stats are:
Ht: 6'2"
Wt: 175#
Above bust: 40"
Under bust: 36"
Bust: 39"
Bra size about a 36A or NA.
Note: Bra measurement for most bio males is clearly different than for GGs. Although in a GG bra calculator I would be a 40 B (roughly), keep in mind because of pectoral and deltoid muscle development my bust measurement doesn't really apply. Depending on the bra, I can now pretty much fill a 36A cup.
Goal: Full 36 B/C
Fuller hips and butt

Current changes:
Physical - Four primary physical changes have occurred:

1. Nipples - for a little over a week I have experienced gradual nipple protrusion with some tingling, not much, mind you, but enough to know something is happening.

2. Breasts - Definitely filling, heavier. About a .5 inch growth increase across the bust since day 1 four weeks ago.

3. Definite positive changes in skin, hair and nails.

4. Increased energy. (this is both physical and emotional/psychological)

> Of note - no erectile changes. Still good wood!

Emotional/psychological - I have so far experienced most of my changes in these areas. These primary changes have occurred (keep in mind, I have combat related PTSD, see note at bottom of this section):

1. My temperament has definitely taken a gradual turn for the better in these ways:
-Improved anger management (especially when driving).
-More positive outlook.
-Marked increase in ability to cope with stress.
-Definite mood improvement

2. Clearer thinking and focus, including some noticeable improvement in memory and cognitive function.

4. Greater emotional instability---I tend to get more emotional and cry or at least tear up at things that affect me emotionally. This has happened on several occasions, and not just during Hallmark commercials . This is not a bad thing, just very different from my normal self. With my PTSD, I had become somewhat emotionally detached.

PTSD Note: I have been on psychotropic drugs (anti-depressants) for about 11 years. Varying meds and dosages. About 10 days ago I unintentionally missed two days of med doses when I forgot to pack them for a business trip. I panicked, but noticed that I was fine. One of my coping mechanisms has been to be very in tune with the state of my entire temperament and I truly felt better than I had felt in quite a while. When I came home, I intentionally stopped my meds as I was increasing my PM (I AM NOT RECOMMENDING ANYONE DO THIS!). So far, the PM has worked better for me dealing with my PTSD issues than the meds did. No worries, I will be very closely monitoring this and discuss with my physician when I go for my annual in a couple of weeks.

So, my darlings, the journey begins (again), this time, I am truly open to whatever path it leads me!

Lisa (The Phoenix!)

[Samantha Rogers]

Nicely done, Lisa! I had no idea about the PTSD. You had mentioned years in the military but nothing about actual combat...which I understand. I am sure you have people for this, but if you ever want a friend to talk to, drop me a pm. I'm your girl, if you want somebody to just listen.
So glad its going well for you.
Hugs

[Lotus]

I thought I would start this thread as a reference for my progress, hopefully help/encouragement to others on the journey, and finally, a journal/diary for myself.

Sweet Lisa,

I'm excited you decided to make a thread about you're progress, such a positive step towards NBE. We have high hopes right?, now get busy!! ....that's an order!!

[Lisa Lou]

Thank you both dear Sammie and Mistress (if only!) L. I am both anxious and excited about the journey, and my "coming out" to whatever degree I am able, as it were.... I feel like a debutant!

As far as the PTSD, I am about 90% which is about as good as I will ever be. Anecdotally, the last Christmas I spent with my last ex, I asked her what she wanted for Christmas, and her response was, "My husband back..." Unfortunately, he never came back enough for her. But I am fortunate, I have had a good support system and sense enough to know I could not handle it by myself.

And for you my Mistress... Yes ma'am!

[Samantha Rogers]

Lisa... have you thought about moving this over to the programs section?

[GoneGirl]

Lisa, dear, good way to start your NBE program. I also keep a log record here at home to record dosages, changes, incidents, feelings, etc. It's already been useful to me.

Your progress after 4 weeks is similar to mine (and why not given that we are half sisters ), except I didn't notice any changes in skin or nails as soon as you. Now into month 4, I'm finding that my skin is more tender, thinner maybe? I need hand protection now where I didn't before. Calluses don't form as quickly or get as thick. I've stopped biting my nails, too.

At the one month mark, my sex drive was AWOL. A little disconcerting at first. You?

I know you said you are bi-gender and totally non-dysphoric, but have you experienced any bouts of second thoughts about pursuing NBE? I had a couple instances of introspection, but nothing to change my set course. The longer I go, the more comfortable and sure I am that this what I want.

Good luck on your endeavor to grow a pair of gorgeous ones. Don't forget to post some pictures on the Picture Pages so we can marvel at your progress!

Clara

[Samantha Rogers]

Lisa, dear, good way to start your NBE program. I also keep a log record here at home to record dosages, changes, incidents, feelings, etc. It's already been useful to me.

Your progress after 4 weeks is similar to mine (and why not given that we are half sisters ), except I didn't notice any changes in skin or nails as soon as you. Now into month 4, I'm finding that my skin is more tender, thinner maybe? I need hand protection now where I didn't before. Calluses don't form as quickly or get as thick. I've stopped biting my nails, too.

At the one month mark, my sex drive was AWOL. A little disconcerting at first. You?

I know you said you are bi-gender and totally non-dysphoric, but have you experienced any bouts of second thoughts about pursuing NBE? I had a couple instances of introspection, but nothing to change my set course. The longer I go, the more comfortable and sure I am that this what I want.

Good luck on your endeavor to grow a pair of gorgeous ones. Don't forget to post some pictures on the Picture Pages so we can marvel at your progress!

Clara

Oh, I second that last part! Seems like we are well overdue for some kind of program start pictures, Lisa, dear!
Hee hee, did we put you on the spot?

[Lisa Lou]

Thank you girlfriends,
Here are my responses:

None of you picked up on my subtle attempt at humor in my previous post when I had:

2. Clearer thinking and focus, including some noticeable improvement in memory and cognitive function.

4. Greater emotional instability---

I wrote about clearer thinking and cognitive function and then skipped 3. and went to 4 in my list. --- Stay alert, stay alive girls!

Okay:

1. CK, no surprise my beginning results are similar to yours, given our similar size and age ( But don't forget, I'm the YOUNGER sister! )

2. The last few days libido seems to have gone AWOL all of a sudden, that is not a desired result for me... We'll see if it persists. Thankfully I do have script for Cialis which I have only used once, and damn near killed my SO, so haven't used it since....

3. I do keep a spreadsheet to track herbs, dosages, measurements, ht, wt, and significant emotional/psycho issues..

4. No real second thoughts about this, but this isn't my first rodeo. My biggest thoughts at the moment are how far do I want to go with this, where and when and IF I'll want to level out. I have reconnected with a TG group I was a part of until a few years ago. They are about 3 hours away, but plan on making a trip for their next social event. They are primarily a social group, but do have a lot of resources, which I plan on taking advantage of. Also looking forward to attending Southern Comfort with them in September! (I think I just baited the proverbial hook, didn't I SAMMIE??? )

5. Pics.... Well, I am waiting. Posting starting pics would be like posting pics of a skinny 10 year old, and I don't want any accusations of pedophilia for anyone... REALLY! So, when I do have something of note to post, I will start the pic thread. I do, however plan on posting to the Fashion Show thread very soon!

6. I do think I will move my initial post along with my current program to the program page. How the hell do I do that? Just copy and paste the page???

7. Finally, my biggest struggle right now is patience. I know it takes time, my body has to change, rewire BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH... I WANT BOOBIES, DAMMIT.... NOW!!!!!!!

Okay, my sweets, time to clear the snow and ice off my car and get ready to head to the salt mine...

Hugs and Kisses,
Lisa (the GBB!)

[GoneGirl]

Lisa, my kindred soul, I didn't know you had a shyness streak to you. That's okay, though, I AM happy to read that you are preparing to join the Fashion Show.

I'm at day 5 of my break and my libido is kicking up a fuss. Too bad my DW is feeling under the weather this week.

Oh, I'm sure we all caught the thingy about the skipped list number, but you know how being so much more sensitive and considerate we are on PM, no one wanted to call attention and possibly embarrass you. That's very clever of you, though, to turn it into a 'senior moment' for me and the other grandmas in the group!

BTW, Lisa dear, does older make me wiser? Maybe you shouldn't answer that. LOL

Clara (Feeling free)

[Samantha Rogers]

Well...tee hee... Mea Culpa, ditzy one that I am...I missed the humor/number thing altogether...shoot, I am usually better at stuff like that. Now you will undoubtedly make fun of me....I AM NOT A BLONDE...appearances aside. Still, I am snickering about it now.
I quite understand about the pictures, honey, and don't mind me. I was just goosing you a little for fun. tee hee...
Now, since the issue of libido has been raised...(tee hee), in my first few months on the program, when I first noticed a ... ahem... drop off, I got a scrip for those little blue pills. It did help some in the beginning, but not lately. However, in my case I believe I am still capable of ...hmmm...rising to the occasion, given the right blend of stimulation to excite my current state. We must not forget that libido is a mysterious thing, conditioned most assuredly by body chemistry, but also by psychological need and the fantasies produced by that. I cannot help but think that massively changing the former will have some affect on the latter. And we may not, in being honest with ourselves, always want to hear what those changes tell us. It is a fear and an opportunity both.
I am so glad that you are back in touch with your TG group friends. Yay. I know how good that whole experience made you feel. I do hope you will not forget about us as the other group affects you and draws you in more.
One last thing....did I mention... I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU ?
Just kidding...dear sister, is a devil who keeps tantalizing me with visions of paradise in Atlanta...hee hee
Hugs