[EvaMarie]

Where to start here.... Well still not smoking but NOT real happy about gaining 10 lbs Some is in the right places (tits and ass and thighs) but I cant take the fat on my belly I donno what to do about that, I really havent changed my crappy diet much, I dont think Im eating or drinking any more than I was.... I guess I can try just going with a better diet and just a LITTLE more exercise than my current plan of NONE

So I was tested 5 days after a 10mg shot of estradoil cypionate... I was kinda surprised he only checked the E level which was 489... I was feeling pretty good too when we tested, now I know why It must have been "crashing" to a "normal" level after 7 days... Whatever I didnt like going 7 days between shots.... So I at least havent heard a word from the doc on this, YET.... I pulled it up from the patient portal they have... I will be seeing him again on the 20th and he will be retesting me and hopefully doing a complete test, Im gonna ask for it anyway....

I do know that the E2 to E1 ratio is much higher with injections so I wonder where the E1 level is??? Id bet its MUCH lower than a comparable high oral dose of E and I also bet the total amount of E1-E2 would be close... The E1 is converted to E2 as needed by the body supposedly...

So after that test but before the lab results were in we started estradoil valerate at only 7mg to be self injected every 5 days.... Well I gave that a try and I must say I didnt enjoy less E much at all and ended up supplementing with gel and pills.... Approximately 6 mg extra E per day on that dose

So 5 days later I went with 10mg and that was better but I ended up going with another 10mg the next day.... I just had to try my illicit Indian Progynon Depot... $85.00 for 60 (600mg) in little sealed glass 10mg/1ml ampules shipped to my door was too tempting... I also ordered some filter needles and 3ml syringes and 1 1/2" 22 gauge needles... Thats a 15 MONTH supply at 40mg a month Well I can say its the real deal and Im still here with what feels like a very high E level the next day so thats good anyway

So anyway Delestrogen (EV) 10mg/1ml in a 5mg vial (50mg) is ridiculously expensive at $185.00... BUT my insurance covers most of it and I paid $35.00... Better than $109.00 for the same 5 week supply of Depot-Estrogen (EC) also 50mg...

SO I guess my next shot will be 14mg, only 4mg Delestrogen (gotta keep the docs supply at 40mg per month) and 10mg Progynon Depot... thats gonna be on the 10th then I get one more before the doc and the lab test... That one will probably be 7mg and Im sure its still gonna be high... BUT we will see how long this last 20mg lasts, might be able to go a bit longer than 5 days... SO what I envision is 80mg per month unless my next complete blood test shows a problem aside from high E...

I was FINALLY starting to feel good on the EC when we changed it I think I would have been OK with 60mg a month EC, 10mg every 5 days...

Now I gotta get this EV figured out, 10mg every 5 days would probably be good too BUT I can definitely tell the difference between EC and EV.... The EC did seem a bit more potent than EV feels so far...

BUT who knows Throw quitting cigs and a dental infection on top of all this and Im all messed up...

At least my tooth is feeling MUCH better and Im completely off the HUGE dose of ibuprofen with only one day of antibiotic left.... Still not 100% though, have to go see another dentist on the 14th

I also QUIT that Zyban.... While it did help with the cravings and even made cigs taste like total crap.... Its supposedly an "antidepressant" that SURE had me feeling DEPRESSED and thinking some scary ugly thoughts So Its just cold turkey here, feeling better already without that crap

Meanwhile Ive been cycling the P with the E... After the shot when E is high I take 200mg day one, then 300mg of P day two and taper down to 200mg then 100mg for 2 days.... BUT Im thinking of quitting the P and going back to 7-10 days a month because it always made me gain a few pounds... If that dont help Im thinking in addition ramp the spiro back up a bit... Ive been down to 200mg where I will keep it to my next test...

SO hopefully I can get things more stabilized here without my doc freaking out

I really hope I can get this dental stuff over with soon because I want to do some surgerys over the winter and they wont do them with a dental problem

First is voice feminization with this guy in NY....

http://professionalvoice.org/feminization.aspx

Then if that hopefully goes well facial feminization surgery in Chicago... Possibly combined with "body work", lipo, fat transfer to ass/hips and a tummy tuck... Im hoping to get out there soon for an in person consultation with this guy.... Hopefully with a date in Jan or Feb next year...

http://www.mlzukowski.co.uk/