Quote:Wow that's a lot of work your having and your naturally beautiful as you are although looking at Dr z photos I can see why your doing it those women after ffs look better than most born females but still that he keeps them looking themselves good luck sure it will all go so well I'm getting my nose done and im nervous enough even for simple surgery with a dr i know well.
Thank you for the complement, I love a complement as much as any other woman Ive heard the same thing recently in person from some very beautiful women and thought to myself "they must be blind" LOL... I just dont see what they see... I see "him" and I suppose I always will no matter what I do... However what keeps me going is I also at times see "her" developing and that makes me very happy While I'll never truly know what its like to be a woman the more I progress the happier I am BUT the more feminine I get the more I want and aside from time on HRT things get bigger and bigger and things I used to think Id NEVER do seem so worth the risks the farther I go...
Over the weekend I found myself sitting at a crowded "cis" straight bar with a handsome very attractive older man who was just buying me drinks and treating me just like all the other girls who were drawn to his charm, although I was his date for the evening... WOW you know it just blows my mind sometimes, Im sitting here this morning thinking "No way that was real" but it WAS... Im talking to beautiful younger women and they tell me "he's very cute" and they say 'Your beautiful" and I just dont believe it... Of course when I told them the same thing they disagreed with me and started pointing out all of these flaws about them I couldnt see....
I lived as a "man" for 44 years and projected a somewhat "straight normal dude" persona the best I could... Now a short time after finally stopping that fraud Im really doing this??? UNREAL
So its like a curse and no matter what I do I feel like a fraud, BUT I feel much more at ease and real as a "woman"
A point Ive made to sympathetic supportive people including my dear mother is; "While its great that you are accepting and supportive of me you must realize that with you being "normal" you will never truly understand what its like to be me.... Only someone else with the same condition could and even among us we are all very different"
Good luck with your surgery and I hope it makes you feel better about yourself and you heal well