[EvaMarie]

Yea its full throttle, Ive wasted enough time and my days are numbered!!!

I am impatient mostly because Im also fighting AGE and there's no way around that Unfortunately this just takes TIME regardless of how much $$$ is available It sure doesnt hurt though

SO if things go right I'll be sitting in a very highly regarded for MTF facial feminization and very high $$$ plastic surgeons office in Boston on Monday afternoon

Im excited to get this adventure started soon... I do love to travel these days

Anyway I just took my last 20mg shot, I LOVE the high dosage... Within an hour I can already feel my tits come to life Its gonna be all downhill for a while now though

I went with 20mg of Progynon Depot, 10mg/ml, a big 2 ml shot.... The 10 mg/ml concentration seems to have a slightly slower longer lasting release than the 20mg/ml concentration I just started on...

It seems like the more concentrated 20mg/ml formula (more E in 1/2 the amount of oil) spikes my E a lot higher faster and it also comes down a lot faster.... Likely due to 1/2 the amount of oil

I prefer the less concentrated version even if its just mostly psychological injecting MORE oil... I dont think so though, the more concentrated shot is different for sure.....

I'll find out in five days when I go with 10-14mg (havent decided yet) of the 20mg/ml Delestrogen.... Then five days after that I will do 7-10mg and then ride it out six days and do my lab test and see my doc... Hope its not too high for him but I will do what I gotta do regardless

Im quite sure Im way up there as far as levels go, more than 1000 and maybe 2000pg/ml most of the time with this regime.... Its been nice, I dont worry about anything knowing its all going right to the blood and truly bio identical E2 in the same physiological ratio as a young cis woman.... Ive felt GREAT so far anyway

Its gonna be interesting to cut it more than in half for a while... Im hoping it might shock things and get some more growth going... Im also hoping its not too high for my doc... I will work him HARD challenging any assumptions he might have on some "guideline" number VS my own well being and results though

I did get my spiro changed from 3 100mg pills 3 times daily to 3 50mg pills 3 times daily... Ive been going with 100mg a day splitting a 100mg pill for a couple weeks now with no signs of T poisoning ... Thats a pain and Im glad I dont have to that anymore

Im starting new insurance next year and its a private "gold" plan with Wellmark Blue Cross Blue Shield.... Im hoping for better prescription coverage soon, gonna be interesting to see how that all works out...

I still dont know for sure if they will cover SRS and possibly even my FFS I've found conflicting info on that, I even called a couple of times to ASK them.... NO FUN IF I can get it pre authorized they might do it, I got a MAJOR run around

From what I gather though I just need to meet the WPATH SOC and jump through all the hoops I gotta do anyway for the surgeon... Get 2 psychs and my OB/GYN and regular doc to write letters and its all of a sudden "medically necessary"... WHAT A RACKET I have mentioned to my psych more than a few times that that he's gonna have to start writing that letter SOON... My docs will do it Im sure....

Anyway I applied with them as "male" and my application was on hold... A very nice woman called to make sure that was correct and I explained the situation.... I wasnt sure I could put down female there YET... She said my application was accepted and I just have to write them a brief letter requesting to be listed as female.....

So yea Lotus, Its "all or nothing" for sure