26-07-2014, 09:53 PM
Ok so here goes.....I am 63, was married for 31 years....6 years ago came out to wife as gay.....backing up a bit....going way back
to early years.....have always felt a need to wear womens clothes...used to dress in my moms stuff probably as early as 10....would put on the bras...slips...nylons..anything I could get my hands on...even used her make up a few times...in fact...when I was about probably 13 or 14....first time I had an orgasm was when I was putting on a pair of nylons.....can remember many nights going to sleep wishing that I would wake up female...or with breasts...have always felt that breasts are just supposed to be there...after divorce over the last 6 years, have tried many thngs to grow...the growing pains and aches that I felt did indeed feel so good...and as the weeks months and years have past....the feeling just keeps getting stronger and stronger to where it is all I think about now ....am I TG......when wife and kids would go on a vacation...there was a solid week that I could dress in her stuff and somehow felt "right"....fast forward to January of this year....doc tested T levels and found them to be low....prescribed androgel and have been on since January....about 2 months into this the shall I say dysphoria has become so strong....I wear bras all the time now except for work....have a little projection as I am currently slightly over weight....and when i look down and see them...its like thats supposed to be there. Thinking of ordering PM again and trying a low dose of may 1 per day...and see if this eases me up....this is simply driving me crazy....as of late have imagined my self with an hour glass figure...wanting more hips and butt....a side note ...when my father passed away discovered he was a crossdresser.....so guess that makes me REALLY screwed up......sorry about the long post....have just had to get this off my chest and out to someone who can maybe help me sort it out...thanks for reading
to early years.....have always felt a need to wear womens clothes...used to dress in my moms stuff probably as early as 10....would put on the bras...slips...nylons..anything I could get my hands on...even used her make up a few times...in fact...when I was about probably 13 or 14....first time I had an orgasm was when I was putting on a pair of nylons.....can remember many nights going to sleep wishing that I would wake up female...or with breasts...have always felt that breasts are just supposed to be there...after divorce over the last 6 years, have tried many thngs to grow...the growing pains and aches that I felt did indeed feel so good...and as the weeks months and years have past....the feeling just keeps getting stronger and stronger to where it is all I think about now ....am I TG......when wife and kids would go on a vacation...there was a solid week that I could dress in her stuff and somehow felt "right"....fast forward to January of this year....doc tested T levels and found them to be low....prescribed androgel and have been on since January....about 2 months into this the shall I say dysphoria has become so strong....I wear bras all the time now except for work....have a little projection as I am currently slightly over weight....and when i look down and see them...its like thats supposed to be there. Thinking of ordering PM again and trying a low dose of may 1 per day...and see if this eases me up....this is simply driving me crazy....as of late have imagined my self with an hour glass figure...wanting more hips and butt....a side note ...when my father passed away discovered he was a crossdresser.....so guess that makes me REALLY screwed up......sorry about the long post....have just had to get this off my chest and out to someone who can maybe help me sort it out...thanks for reading
