I'm not suggesting that this changes the way we are. Just that some of us might want to know (as I do) why we may be the way we are. And for some, this knowledge/search may help them deal better with their GD and make decisions.
My mother told me many years ago that she was on DES during her problem pregnancy with me. She told me this since she had been alerted that I - as a DES male - might be more susceptible to testicular cancer. She gave me a fact sheet on "DES and males" and told me to check myself and have myself checked at physicals. I do not blame my mother for taking this drug, it was a popular drug to prescribe at that time, and I do not blame people for things that happen in life. I look at ways to move forward. With this in mind, my mother will likely never know about my GD (although she would be understanding).
Personally I would prefer not to have the GD symptoms, to just feel 100% male, but my GD is another thing in life that I need to deal with. This board, and the knowledge that DES may have played a role help me with dealing with it.
At this time I am off of PM, and trying to deal with my GD in other ways which include this board, research into GD, diet, exercise, meditation, and family and friends. I'm not saying that I will not be returning to PM, just that I am trying to deal with my GD in ways that do not cause physical changes that I would need to hide to live my life in the direction that I see it heading. I want to someday be a grandfather to my future grandchildren, I want to keep as much physical strength as possible, I want the male side of me to survive.
I know we are all different, and I have grown by reading others journeys with their GD which has helped me deal with my own GD. Thanks to all that post here, you do not know how much it has helped me. Also, I am not saying that any of us are broken, we are who we are, and we need to accept ourselves for who we are. For some us that may be dealing with GD and remaining as male as possible, and for others it may include complete transition.
Wishing everyone the best in their journeys,
Paul
My mother told me many years ago that she was on DES during her problem pregnancy with me. She told me this since she had been alerted that I - as a DES male - might be more susceptible to testicular cancer. She gave me a fact sheet on "DES and males" and told me to check myself and have myself checked at physicals. I do not blame my mother for taking this drug, it was a popular drug to prescribe at that time, and I do not blame people for things that happen in life. I look at ways to move forward. With this in mind, my mother will likely never know about my GD (although she would be understanding).
Personally I would prefer not to have the GD symptoms, to just feel 100% male, but my GD is another thing in life that I need to deal with. This board, and the knowledge that DES may have played a role help me with dealing with it.
At this time I am off of PM, and trying to deal with my GD in other ways which include this board, research into GD, diet, exercise, meditation, and family and friends. I'm not saying that I will not be returning to PM, just that I am trying to deal with my GD in ways that do not cause physical changes that I would need to hide to live my life in the direction that I see it heading. I want to someday be a grandfather to my future grandchildren, I want to keep as much physical strength as possible, I want the male side of me to survive.
I know we are all different, and I have grown by reading others journeys with their GD which has helped me deal with my own GD. Thanks to all that post here, you do not know how much it has helped me. Also, I am not saying that any of us are broken, we are who we are, and we need to accept ourselves for who we are. For some us that may be dealing with GD and remaining as male as possible, and for others it may include complete transition.
Wishing everyone the best in their journeys,
Paul
