Miranda,
We do see the world in much the same light. Our trans evolutions also match up pretty well. And, yes, we are a rather diverse bunch here at BN. I used to read every post on the 'Genetic Male' subforum. Now, my focus is mostly limited to the Gender Identity, Personal Programs, and Picture Pages subforums. I wasn't even aware of the trolling issue that prompted the creation of the specially protected 'Males Staying Male' subforum. I have no interest in the guys wanting to grow boobs for whatever reason. I don't see any need to attack them, however. Live and let live.
Transitioning is an enormous endeavor. When looked at as a whole it seems an impossible undertaking. There are so many obstacles and chances for failure. I view it a lot like I view getting married and raising a family. The commitment, responsibility, heartache, and the risks are overwhelming when you stop to think about it. And, yet we take it on anyway to satisfy a deep seated need and the promise of true happiness. You get through both by taking it one step at a time.
Being late transitioning transsexuals puts us, Miranda, in a rather exclusive club of our own. What is it like to live in two genders -- to see the world through the eyes of a man and later as a woman? Some would object and argue that your gender cannot change. If you are a transsexual woman, you were always a woman, never a man. I see it differently.
I have a strong sense that I have both a male and female brain. The male brain (A) and the female brain (B) share brain matter (shaded overlap-C) as shown in this Venn diagram:
When I lived as a man, I didn't go around thinking "I'm a woman trapped in a man's body!" My GD symptoms showed up in less direct and harder to interpret ways most of which disappeared when I changed to an estrogen dominant hormonal balance.
On estrogen, my female brain (B) gradually took over my conscious mind while my male brain (A) faded away. My former male perspective has since been replaced with my new female perspective. The differences are real as my spouse will attest to.
One of the most interesting consequences of this gender switch is that, as a woman, I harbor no ill will toward men. I feel that I understand men having identified as a male for so long.
So how do I know I'm a woman? Simple. With my female brain now well nourished with E, and my male brain deprived of T, my physiologically based GD symptoms are gone, except that now I feel the distress of being a "woman trapped in a man's body". Estrogen has turned me into a "primary transsexual woman" where, in every waking hour of the day, I have an unmistakable sense of being a woman, and an intense need to make my external appearance match my sense of gender.
This outcome is what those who have experienced the same phenomenon call the "slippery slope" or the "pink fog". It is real. And it's why people are cautioned about messing with their hormones. It doesn't effect everyone. You have to fall substantially to the female side of the gender spectrum for it to have any effect. If your gender falls more to the male end, flipping one's hormone balance will not push you into the fog, but it can produce the opposite effect -- mental discord. This is, in fact, the way gender therapists diagnose a patient as being transsexual or not.
To have one's gender identity and biological sex so far mismatched is a relatively rare occurrence in the development of a fetus. That's why there are so many more male self-identifying cross dressers than there are transsexual women -- and I truly believe there are many more men who would cross dress if it were not taboo. (And as a side note: Those deep feelings can be scary for a man, and ellicit negative emotional reactions to trans people.) Cross dressers are men who have a need to express their feminine side now and then while hiding from the disapproving eye of society. Transsexual women are women who, like all women, can express their male side freely. Could this be the source of the friction between these two disparate trans groups?
Clara
We do see the world in much the same light. Our trans evolutions also match up pretty well. And, yes, we are a rather diverse bunch here at BN. I used to read every post on the 'Genetic Male' subforum. Now, my focus is mostly limited to the Gender Identity, Personal Programs, and Picture Pages subforums. I wasn't even aware of the trolling issue that prompted the creation of the specially protected 'Males Staying Male' subforum. I have no interest in the guys wanting to grow boobs for whatever reason. I don't see any need to attack them, however. Live and let live.
Transitioning is an enormous endeavor. When looked at as a whole it seems an impossible undertaking. There are so many obstacles and chances for failure. I view it a lot like I view getting married and raising a family. The commitment, responsibility, heartache, and the risks are overwhelming when you stop to think about it. And, yet we take it on anyway to satisfy a deep seated need and the promise of true happiness. You get through both by taking it one step at a time.
Being late transitioning transsexuals puts us, Miranda, in a rather exclusive club of our own. What is it like to live in two genders -- to see the world through the eyes of a man and later as a woman? Some would object and argue that your gender cannot change. If you are a transsexual woman, you were always a woman, never a man. I see it differently.
I have a strong sense that I have both a male and female brain. The male brain (A) and the female brain (B) share brain matter (shaded overlap-C) as shown in this Venn diagram:
When I lived as a man, I didn't go around thinking "I'm a woman trapped in a man's body!" My GD symptoms showed up in less direct and harder to interpret ways most of which disappeared when I changed to an estrogen dominant hormonal balance.
On estrogen, my female brain (B) gradually took over my conscious mind while my male brain (A) faded away. My former male perspective has since been replaced with my new female perspective. The differences are real as my spouse will attest to.
One of the most interesting consequences of this gender switch is that, as a woman, I harbor no ill will toward men. I feel that I understand men having identified as a male for so long.
So how do I know I'm a woman? Simple. With my female brain now well nourished with E, and my male brain deprived of T, my physiologically based GD symptoms are gone, except that now I feel the distress of being a "woman trapped in a man's body". Estrogen has turned me into a "primary transsexual woman" where, in every waking hour of the day, I have an unmistakable sense of being a woman, and an intense need to make my external appearance match my sense of gender.
This outcome is what those who have experienced the same phenomenon call the "slippery slope" or the "pink fog". It is real. And it's why people are cautioned about messing with their hormones. It doesn't effect everyone. You have to fall substantially to the female side of the gender spectrum for it to have any effect. If your gender falls more to the male end, flipping one's hormone balance will not push you into the fog, but it can produce the opposite effect -- mental discord. This is, in fact, the way gender therapists diagnose a patient as being transsexual or not.
To have one's gender identity and biological sex so far mismatched is a relatively rare occurrence in the development of a fetus. That's why there are so many more male self-identifying cross dressers than there are transsexual women -- and I truly believe there are many more men who would cross dress if it were not taboo. (And as a side note: Those deep feelings can be scary for a man, and ellicit negative emotional reactions to trans people.) Cross dressers are men who have a need to express their feminine side now and then while hiding from the disapproving eye of society. Transsexual women are women who, like all women, can express their male side freely. Could this be the source of the friction between these two disparate trans groups?
Clara