[Nikki9]

wow Nikki - your breasts still look amazing and i'm sure at this point they will ALWAYS be that large even if you stopped taking BO.  I'm so jealous !

What? Ive been off BO since like may... Im on real pharma grade Estrogen and Androcur (blocker).
coming up to my 4 month mark.
I think im at a point where I have 2 body fats on my stomach torso.... or im just bloated... But I cant seem to dip below 195lbs on my scale....

Sorry Nikki I havent been here for a while.  Didnt know you abandoned BO.  Is there a reason you stopped or did you plateau and didnt see any further growth?  How does pharma feel different ?  Side effects?

I just want a full feminization and it wasnt happening with BO plus BO was getting expensive were as I pay 10$ a month for pharma grade stuff now I was paying for BO herb blockers around 100 a month. Its now been I believe 4 months Estradiol and 5 months androcur. Ive been super sick thou since sept 2nd week in I ended up missing my appointment with my nurse practitioner Which I really regret now cuz my followup he basically said we have to get you healthy before I can up your dosages.. Next meeting is Nov 1st... so Ive now been stuck on 2mg E sincce july or aug... Kinda disheartening when you find out your not at the levels you should be...   By that I mean Im at 30PG/ML on estradiol    http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
from my last test in sept 1st week just before I got super sick... I think im on the mend today as Im not feeling like I have bronchitis anymore...

How does it feel... My mood improved as soon as I hit 2mg E
Did I plateau not really it was mainly a cost thing and a wanting to fully feminize
Lost my father in aug still hasnt talked to me... Not even for thanksgiving.. No response first time I ever felt this alone on Thanksgiving.
My new friend unfortunately got sick off me and this virus she isnt fairing any better. (sadly I was gonna learn makeup from her and do some shopping with her.) Dont know if thats gonna happen now either as she might be getting evicted from her appartment... very sad about that.
The reason thou I stopped BO it got me to a point but would of stopped Pharma grade stuff from working as it would of bound to my receptors. Didnt stopp till May thou. But I was 95 PMOL E levels which is kinda sad cuz it dropped and dropped but is now up to 112PMOL E levels on pharma grade 2mg...

I feel like my DHT levels are not going down thou. I raised that to my Nurse Practioner he assured me it shouldnt be. Had I seen the test results in my feverish state that Night I would of demanded higher doses of Androcur at that point. Who cares if I am sick as a zombie from the walking dead.