[Jessica4581000]

So yesterday had my first visit with the therapist. Small talk first then right into why I'm here and I spilled my guts; first time ever I've told someone face to face so many things that i just couldn't ever-ever tell anyone about, from the first time i was dressed in public around age 10 to now. And so much in between then and now.
I know I just want to get into the heart of it and give my the test, but she needs to know my travels to get to where I am now, and of course where I want to be, or more importantly- who I want to be. And I understand this.
She asked what I've been taking in regards to herbals, and if I've taken any prescription meds.  Asked about my alcohol usage, which is what I consider to be social, and not heavy. Asked about drug usage, I haven't in over 30 years. 
Asked about depression, suicidal thoughts,  family life when growing up etc.
We had a few laughs, which I feel was great because I think I can be comfortable with her and hopefully this will give me the answers to the questions in my head,  some of which have been there for almost 50 years!
Next appointment is next Tuesday......I'm finally doing something , that I should have done 45 years ago...better late than never!