[polymorphis]

Welcome to the club, is all I've got.  I call it " Nearer My God to Thee " syndrome.  Another words, people wake up to the fact that, for them, the end of time is getting closer and closer.  That, and in my case, forced medical retirement makes a body do some deep soul searching over all of the "why's and why not's".  My therapist pointed that much out to me.  So sad, is it not?

It is sad iaboy, it really is. I know that history does not like "what ifs", and it applies for world history as well as our personal histories, but I just can't help but think how would our lifes were different if there were more acceptance and information about transgender issues several decades, or even years, ago. But I think I would have not shaped a lot differently, because I was, and still am, afraid to accept myself. I just hid it behind a hypothesis that all my strange inclinations towards feminine was just a fetish. I really was wrong.

Heh, I guess it useless to cry over spilt milk or lament about lack of understanding from general population. We are now and we have to work with what we've got. That's why I still try to find any positives about being transgender, because I believe that it has to be some reason evolution allowed it.

Poly