(25-11-2016, 04:53 AM)julieTG Wrote: Dc
well its all there
Look at the girls on pharma in HRT section,
many many of them say
no goals to transition
now there on pharma and all steam ahead,
the common link seems to be pharma,
and in many other forums,
but here pm seems to take many to a point then something kicks in and they try HRT and never seem to come back,
if I am not mistaken
Eva is one girl who is ?
Full steam ahead is right...
I transitioned at 19, started with some oral estrogen in small doses then I just went full transition afterwards.
Lived as a girl till 25 then I just stopped because for many reasons it wasn't what I wanted.
There's a mental change when on E, subtle, but looking back I can spot several things:
- I got really tired at first, but that lower energy state quickly became my norm.
- Gradually I became less frustrated and angry, calmer and happier.
- Although relatives were against my transition, my new behaviour was more to their liking. So they naturally became more positive around me which I mistakenly took as a sort of gained acceptance. Like being a woman was what I was meant to be, since everyone is nicer to me now.
- My strengths in life changed, I became more vocal, less intense and could keep better track of my thoughts. This I only realise now because my thought process is much more one-track and obsessive than when on E, which suits my job actually.
So yeah, I can see it as a slope but in the end, once they reach close to the end point (GRS eek), if it's not for you, you'll turn back...