[Myranda]

Welcome Myranda, 

That was a nice intro, I think you'll need a program thread (asap) so we can follow your journey here at the nexum. 

Good luck, 
L.

Thanks Lotus. As soon as my GD and I discuss and start my HRT regimine, i will post here

I just wanted  to pop in here and say ,that back at the end of January or Early February, I chickened out about HRT.    I'm still a bit confused as to whether or not I am trans, but over the last few weeks, I've been questioning ,or rather doubting  or seconding guessing my decision to not pursue MtF HRT earlier in the year.  I am so tempted to start NBE again right now, but a part of me is yelling at me to tell in therapist that I really do want to try MtF HRT and make a new appoint with my GD and get my prescription.  I believe that had I kept my last appointment with my GD that we would have gone over the Informed consent form and that she would have prescribed my meds.  I feel even more so right now, that I need to experience my emotional and psyche on E to find out whether or not it just clicks and I can be truly happy and at peace.

from my talks with my therapist and GD, I do not fit the "classic experience" of one who is Trans, but at the same time I almost feel compelled to do this.  But while I most certainly welcome the emotional and definitely the hopefully physical results, I'm terrified to take the leap.  I mean this "secret" has already ruined and ended my marriage to the woman I absolutely love and adore, I don't want to ruin the other parts of my life.  But there is something about this tha tI feel I really need to explore via experience via feminine emotional and physical development.