15-10-2013, 05:06 AM
Hello all!
It has been quite a while since I said hello, or even came for a visit. My sister got married, my mom had surgery, and I started my second to last semester of college. Pretty crazy, huh?
All the meanwhile, I've been on and off of PM. I bought 3 bottles about 4 months ago, and I have about 2/3 of a bottle left. Not too consistent, as I live with my loving family and don't want to freak them out.
But with the somewhat recent projection I've been getting from my rathe enlarged and excited nipples, I started to question exactly what I wanted of all of this. After all, if I am going all the way, I need to start taking it more seriously. For instance, I work at a Church, and for a foundation that supports the Russian arts.. Not to mention how intensely religious my family is!
I started to melt down when my schoolwork got out of control the same time my real job picked up.. And on top of that I never figured out what I want from my body! So I started seeing my old therapist again. He doesn't have much experience in the subject, but he knows me well enough to help a bit.
So when I brought it up to him (teary eyes and all), he told me to take some time and explore why I feel the need to dress this way and take PM.. I didn't have a good answer because I never let myself really think about it!
So that's where I am now. Thinking..
I'm sorry for the novel, I just need to tell someone! Also, I'd love to hear what you guys and gals have done in terms of explaining yourselves to anyone, be it family or therapists, or others in your life.
Thanks for reading!
It has been quite a while since I said hello, or even came for a visit. My sister got married, my mom had surgery, and I started my second to last semester of college. Pretty crazy, huh?
All the meanwhile, I've been on and off of PM. I bought 3 bottles about 4 months ago, and I have about 2/3 of a bottle left. Not too consistent, as I live with my loving family and don't want to freak them out.
But with the somewhat recent projection I've been getting from my rathe enlarged and excited nipples, I started to question exactly what I wanted of all of this. After all, if I am going all the way, I need to start taking it more seriously. For instance, I work at a Church, and for a foundation that supports the Russian arts.. Not to mention how intensely religious my family is!
I started to melt down when my schoolwork got out of control the same time my real job picked up.. And on top of that I never figured out what I want from my body! So I started seeing my old therapist again. He doesn't have much experience in the subject, but he knows me well enough to help a bit.
So when I brought it up to him (teary eyes and all), he told me to take some time and explore why I feel the need to dress this way and take PM.. I didn't have a good answer because I never let myself really think about it!
So that's where I am now. Thinking..
I'm sorry for the novel, I just need to tell someone! Also, I'd love to hear what you guys and gals have done in terms of explaining yourselves to anyone, be it family or therapists, or others in your life.
Thanks for reading!