05-08-2025, 07:10 PM
Hello everyone, Mazey here. Lost in the maze of life!
For the last 4 years I’ve been on and off - mostly on - an estrogen and suppressing testosterone regime. Starting with patches and moving to estrogel. With Androcur as blocker then Spiro and now three monthly injections.
Starting at nearly 50 I didn't quite now what to expect. I figured that there might be minimum breast growth and changes due to starting later in life. Also I approached it as an experiment that I could stop at any time.
Of course once you start hormonal manipulation and running your body on a new sex hormone the adventure takes over.
Along with the budding where you breasts become as hard as golf balls and sore you get fat redistribution to your thighs and butt. In essence you get curvier.
But I was not ready for the areola growth and darkening and the slow but inevitable development through the tanner stages. I would describe this process as revelatory, spiritual and quite frightening at times when you realise you are actually getting boobs.
Guess now they are now tanner stage 4 and quite perky. But not as mature as I would like. And I would like my areolas larger and darker. Perhaps enhanced with permanent make up if no more changes. And unless I bind or cover with a thick t-sheet my nipples protrude through.
Now I have got what I dreamed of all my life, it is quite wonderful but not what I expected. You might think I will be playing with them all day, holding, squeezing and pinching them. But not quite. I massage them but mainly I am aware that I have activated my mammory glands and ampullae receptors and altered my silhouette and body forever.
But it isn't enough. I realise I need now to go all the way to mature breasts of a busty middle aged woman and go all the way with transition. This is not what I expected when I started this process. Thought I would either stop, or be happy experiencing some slight development.
So I am looking for a buddy, or mentor who has gone through what I have or is busy as I am, reinventing themself as a busty trans woman.
For the last 4 years I’ve been on and off - mostly on - an estrogen and suppressing testosterone regime. Starting with patches and moving to estrogel. With Androcur as blocker then Spiro and now three monthly injections.
Starting at nearly 50 I didn't quite now what to expect. I figured that there might be minimum breast growth and changes due to starting later in life. Also I approached it as an experiment that I could stop at any time.
Of course once you start hormonal manipulation and running your body on a new sex hormone the adventure takes over.
Along with the budding where you breasts become as hard as golf balls and sore you get fat redistribution to your thighs and butt. In essence you get curvier.
But I was not ready for the areola growth and darkening and the slow but inevitable development through the tanner stages. I would describe this process as revelatory, spiritual and quite frightening at times when you realise you are actually getting boobs.
Guess now they are now tanner stage 4 and quite perky. But not as mature as I would like. And I would like my areolas larger and darker. Perhaps enhanced with permanent make up if no more changes. And unless I bind or cover with a thick t-sheet my nipples protrude through.
Now I have got what I dreamed of all my life, it is quite wonderful but not what I expected. You might think I will be playing with them all day, holding, squeezing and pinching them. But not quite. I massage them but mainly I am aware that I have activated my mammory glands and ampullae receptors and altered my silhouette and body forever.
But it isn't enough. I realise I need now to go all the way to mature breasts of a busty middle aged woman and go all the way with transition. This is not what I expected when I started this process. Thought I would either stop, or be happy experiencing some slight development.
So I am looking for a buddy, or mentor who has gone through what I have or is busy as I am, reinventing themself as a busty trans woman.
