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Hi all,
This daily check list may be useful to all and feel free expand,
Its based on an eyes wide open approach and making sure my PM doses are not to high and getting carried off with pinkfog
Each day I evaluate and check following
scaled out of 10 with 10 highest level
Daily Log and my answers today
Pm doses , 6 capsule spread
Others, no
Synthetics, no
Do I want to be a woman ?, no
Porn accessing, um ok you got me, a little
Porn fantasy , on and off subdued compared to last week, massively
Male side, strong 9 today
Sexual keeness, hot , running at 9 wife not safe
Morning wood, 6-7 ish
Female side, umm, 1-2
Work mode level, high inbetween the porn, 9
Researching tg, pm issues, high 8
Attitude to down below, yes love it , 9
Playing with breasts, 10, constant pain in the arse trying to get work done
Desire for breasts , solid 5 , getting on with it
Hope helps
and most interested to see all your replies
Julie
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Now as a footnote to that and one that is odd
I am ramped sexually today ie major frisky , now usually when that happens
I go
super girlie if think that way ie the female "do anything you want with me sissy side comes out to play"
today its not
I am in full male mode
Now thats odd,
Julie
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O.K., I will play. LOL
(23-09-2015, 04:20 PM)julieTG Wrote: Hi all,
This daily check list may be useful to all and feel free expand,
Its based on an eyes wide open approach and making sure my PM doses are not to high and getting carried off with pinkfog
Each day I evaluate and check following
scaled out of 10 with 10 highest level
Daily Log and my answers today
Pm doses , 6 capsule spread
Iaboy Wrote:Equivalent of 3 (extract sub lingually)
Others, no
Iaboy Wrote:Spironolactone, Finasteride
Synthetics, no
Iaboy Wrote:None
Do I want to be a woman ?, no
Iaboy Wrote:Just some feminization and boobs. So, about a 6?
Porn accessing, um ok you got me, a little
Iaboy Wrote:4-5
Porn fantasy , on and off subdued compared to last week, massively
Iaboy Wrote:5 -6
Male side, strong 9 today
Iaboy Wrote:4 - 6
Sexual keeness, hot , running at 9 wife not safe
Iaboy Wrote:N/A
Morning wood, 6-7 ish
Iaboy Wrote:N/A
Female side, umm, 1-2
Iaboy Wrote:6 -7
Work mode level, high inbetween the porn, 9
Iaboy Wrote:about 7
Researching tg, pm issues, high 8
Iaboy Wrote:4
Attitude to down below, yes love it , 9
Iaboy Wrote:I guess I don't understand
Playing with breasts, 10, constant pain in the arse trying to get work done
Iaboy Wrote:Breast Pump and massage so, around 7
Desire for breasts , solid 5 , getting on with it
Iaboy Wrote:7 -8
Hope helps
and most interested to see all your replies
Julie
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Wow, that's quite a list you got there Julie!
Maybe it's just me, but I don't feel a need to micromanage my NBE, pm levels or gender identity. I see the different components of myself (gendered and non-gendered) as being largely self-regulating, thereby eliminating a need for constant oversight. Fiscal responsibility doesn't go out the window when I'm shopping for women's clothes. Feeling feminine or wanting to do feminine things doesn't make me oblivious to the fact that I have a mostly masculine body and voice. If my crossdressing/NBE desires got free reign tomorrow, I think the most that would happen is making some tweaks to my wardrobe and perhaps incorporate minor amounts of cosmetics to my appearance. It's not like I would suddenly get into gender therapy, get started on HRT, move to a different city and start living full-time as a woman.
In other words, I see my pursuit of crossdressing and NBE as one of many aspects of myself, versus being alien components with their own agendas that are incompatible with my own values. If there's one thing I'm worried about myself is the possibility of relapsing into depression, not where crossdressing or NBE may take me.
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Well, that got me thoroughly confused.
I have never thought of myself in the plural. No more than one day a person would like a hamburger, next day steak but on the third day just a salad.
Between sales, my wife giving me clothes that don't fit, or she don't like anymore... I maybe spend $30 per month on "things", probably less than a normal guy on normal guy clothes.
As far as micro managing goes, that is no different than a person going to get his/her hair cut, or taken meds the doctor's pre scribe. I am doing fine on my normal 1200 - 1500 mg per day micro managing. Me and my C -D cups are doing just fine right now.
