[GoneGirl]

Yesterday was three months on PM for me. That's 3 months of only PM and no earlier NBE of any kind. The results have been truly amazing in many ways, including breast growth. I went from flat to A-cup with obvious glandular tissue growth beyond the budding stage and nipple enlargement. Picture update coming soon.

I plan to continue on, but the thought occurred to me that maybe I need to do a reality check. I mean, no guy wants to wake up one day and regret having female-like breasts, right? I want to always love my boobs, so it's a commitment to transition, at least in part, right?

So, is it a good idea to stop at intervals, or at certain stages of growth, let the T-levels return to the body's natural level, and re-evaluate one's gender identity feelings and feminization goals? Anybody do that?

Is there a downside to taking a long break?

I'm not getting cold feet. It's just my 'cover all the bases' nature talking here.

CK

[Samantha Rogers]

I don't think it ever hurts to be sure. I have not ever stopped in three and a half years, but that is simply because my growth has been so slow recently that if anything I have been impatient for more. I was planning a short break soon, but only to try and reenergize a spurt and get out of what I regard as a stall.
If you have any doubts then by all means I would think taking a break to reevaluate would be a recommended course.

[Karren]

Reality is so over rated..... I'd just keep marching forward..... till you decide to stop marching and start fighting... or march in a different direction....

[Scotti]

Looked at your progress thread from December and I'd say that's some nice gain! I'm also assuming you've had even more since then. Certainly doesn't hurt to hit pause and re-evaluate.

When you started taking PM did it effect you mentally and emotionally as well?

[GoneGirl]

If you have any doubts then by all means I would think taking a break to reevaluate would be a recommended course.

Oh yes, no argument there, Samantha. One should be sure of their commitment to breast growth. Any doubts should give pause. I don't feel doubts, but there is a certain intellectual curiosity that's needling me.

Is it possible that taking PM covers up any doubts that might otherwise exist if PM wasn't doing its mind bending thing?

Some transgenders tip way to the feminine, while others less so. Early on I figured I was half and half gender-wise. Since taking PM, my feminine side has become so powerful. It's like, where did this person come from? How could she have been buried for so long, and only now make her presence known?

If I went off the PM for, say, 3 months would she again fade into the background?

I'm not thrilled about doing the experiment to find out. That's why I'm asking the question. Your thoughts, anyone?

CK

[Samantha Rogers]

Quite right, Clara. I have seen lots of people these past few years come on board here, get the bug, go full bore for awhile, then suddenly decide the whole thing was a mistake.
As I said, it never hurts to be sure.

[GoneGirl]

When you started taking PM did it effect you mentally and emotionally as well?

Most definitely. In fact, my initial motivation for trying PM was for that reason. I didn't have a sense that my gender identity was so far to the feminine side. My dysphoria was showing itself in ways that I thought were normal masculine interests (porn and masturbation), but becoming compulsive. Then, something triggered my old crossdressing urge which I had successfully avoided for years.

The mental and emotional benefits of PM were the first to be felt.

That all seems like it happened ages ago!

CK

[Lotus]

Hi CK,

So, is it a good idea to stop at intervals, or at certain stages of growth, let the T-levels return to the body's natural level, and re-evaluate one's gender identity feelings and feminization goals? Anybody do that?

Personally, I think without the benefit of monthly hormone test it's a good idea to give your system a break. During that time it's good to do a self assessment!, see if your goal has changed. If it's the same then proceed, if you have doubts then get a second opinion, a loved one or trusted friend, or even a professional.

Is there a downside to taking a long break?

I recently took over a month long break due to medical reasons, I lost some growth up top but gained some back below, a cause for celebration and sadness at the same time!.

Something to think about, taking too long of a break and you give back what you've worked hard to get, or it's your time to stop if you're having doubts. It would seem pointless until you've figured out what you want to do!, just my opinion.

[Lotus]

Quite right, Clara. I have seen lots of people these past few years come on board here, get the bug, go full bore for awhile, then suddenly decide the whole thing was a mistake.

SR, I feel bad for those people, could it be they also just got frustrated by the lack of results?. If so, how conflicted/tormented are they currently, can they speak to someone about it?.

[GoneGirl]

Personally, I think without the benefit of monthly hormone test it's a good idea to give your system a break. During that time it's good to do a self assessment!, see if your goal has changed. If it's the same then proceed, if you have doubts then get a second opinion, a loved one or trusted friend, or even a professional.

Yes, Lotus, that makes a lot of sense. It occurred to me that part of the reassessment process should be to check how one's partner is taking the changes, as well. If a supportive spouse, starts having doubts, it could lead to trouble and regrets down the road.

So, I walked up to my wife who was preparing lunch, and facing her, placed her hands on my protruding breasts and said, "Three months on PM. What do you think?"

With her hands firmly planted there, she burst out laughing. "Why are laughing?" I asked with a hint of apprehension on my face.

She took both of my hands and placed them on her breasts and said, "Sixty years of estrogen. What do you think?"

We both laughed at the hilarity of the scene being played out, and then she said, "Sorry honey...you're doing fine."

So I took that as a vote of confidence that I'm on the right track, at least from her perspective. I may still take an extended break, though.

Got to think it over for a couple days.

CK