[GoneGirl]

I've noticed that my own behaviors have changed not just because of the so called "brain rewiring" that PM causes, but also because having acknowledged the female component of my gender identity, I have a tendency to want to validate it. It's not enough just to accept my feminine leanings with a shrug, and let it be. I want to project that side of me, and seek a certain amount of positive feedback. To do that, I will often behave in ways that I think exemplify that aspect of my psyche, both behaviorally (cross dressing, using feminine verbalisms), and psychologically (listening, feeling, caring).

I know that PM has had a physical effect on me -- breast growth, loss of male sex drive, reduced anxiety, and modest feminizing effects on my appearance, but the behavioral changes are in many ways much more significant. If I stopped taking PM for good, would these behavioral changes reverse course? Would it mean rejecting my feminine side and shunning feminine mannerisms? Would I then want to validate my return to the masculine?

I'm not about to do the experiment. I wonder if anyone has.

Clara