[Marina Kits]

-- Ooooh, ouch! Yes, most likely ... mea culpa... not going to worry about it though.

I'm sorry Sammie, I wasn't trying to single you or anyone out. I was afraid it would happen but I promise it wasn't a veiled barb directed at you.

And you, know... I have almost posted a selfie as my avatar a gazillion times. And I would... What holds me back is simple prudence. Though my wife now knows, the rest of my family and friends do not. Should someone I know stumble across this site and recognize... well, it would cause problems. I could deal with that for myself, but I would not want, say my teenaged daughter to go through that. Sigh...
If its not one thing its your mother...

I'm in the same boat. Wife knows, no one else does. I've considered the possibility that someone I know might stumble across my pic here and find their jaw laying on the table. ...So be it. I think there are only two possibilities: they too are transgendered or I'm busted. If the later, well, I hope it goes well. I'm not a freak or pervert, I'm transgender, just like thousands of other people on this planet. If they come to me and ask questions, I'll remind them that they've know me for a long time, they just haven't known about this deep angst I've suffered with my whole life. What more can they do besides hurl insults? I'll take a few stones for our group. I'll be a martyr for the cause. I completely understand if others need to protect their identity but I'm at a point where I've put my identity on the line and am willing to let the chips fall where they may. Again, I love you all (does that sound feminine?) and your avatar wont change that. But if you're brave ...when your brave enough there is liberty in letting yourself be know to the world.

I have to laugh at myself with all the attention I'm giving to forcing my testosterone sculpted face and body into an image of femininity that is impossible for me to achieve.

Sigh, I think that's where I'm at. I could say things that make me sound feminine, I could spend a lot of money to try to look feminine below and above, I can dress in ways that make me look feminine ...but I'll never be or have or experience what I really want. I doubt any amount of money or effort could even put me in the upper 50 percentile of women my age. So where does that leave me? What am I to do? Maybe that's why I don't try very hard to do, look, sound, act feminine. I'll never convince anyone anyway. It would certainly be better if I could just be happy being a male. Lucky for those who already are.