I can relate to your feelings, Misty. I adore a young, healthy and fit female body, too, as do most men. But, why I want to emulate the female sex myself? That's an easy question to answer today, but it wasn't always that way.
Dr. Vitale would say that I have a strong female gender identity. Okay, but why is that? The medical scientists theorize that my brain was deprived of testosterone during fetal development. In other words, I was born with the innate sense that I'm a girl. If I had also been born with a vagina instead of a penis, I doubt that I would have had any trouble growing up as a girl. But, at my birth the obstetrician noted my little penis and balls, wrote 'Male' on the birth certificate, and so I couldn't be a girl.
For the next several years of my life I was treated as, and encouraged to behave as a boy. Being the only boy of five children and growing up before the movement to allow girls the same opportunities as boys, I saw the advantages of going along with the general consensus -- I was a boy. If I had been born with the solid sense that I was male, I wouldn't be here today.
But, trying to undo what nature had done was impossible. I just didn't fit the male role very well, try as I might. But, I didn't feel like a girl either. My subconscious female psyche tried to come forth, but in so doing it came forth distorted and disrespected. That's what happens when you deny yourself; when you refuse to accept the real you. It took a life time to discover and accept who I really am.
So to answer the question: "Why do you want to grow tits/become a woman?" I can only respond, "Because I am a woman inside, at least in part, and I want to be free to express myself as a woman, at least part of the time." It all seems so obvious to me now and so right.
Clara
Dr. Vitale would say that I have a strong female gender identity. Okay, but why is that? The medical scientists theorize that my brain was deprived of testosterone during fetal development. In other words, I was born with the innate sense that I'm a girl. If I had also been born with a vagina instead of a penis, I doubt that I would have had any trouble growing up as a girl. But, at my birth the obstetrician noted my little penis and balls, wrote 'Male' on the birth certificate, and so I couldn't be a girl.
For the next several years of my life I was treated as, and encouraged to behave as a boy. Being the only boy of five children and growing up before the movement to allow girls the same opportunities as boys, I saw the advantages of going along with the general consensus -- I was a boy. If I had been born with the solid sense that I was male, I wouldn't be here today.
But, trying to undo what nature had done was impossible. I just didn't fit the male role very well, try as I might. But, I didn't feel like a girl either. My subconscious female psyche tried to come forth, but in so doing it came forth distorted and disrespected. That's what happens when you deny yourself; when you refuse to accept the real you. It took a life time to discover and accept who I really am.
So to answer the question: "Why do you want to grow tits/become a woman?" I can only respond, "Because I am a woman inside, at least in part, and I want to be free to express myself as a woman, at least part of the time." It all seems so obvious to me now and so right.
Clara