[spanky (aka Lola)]

After about four months of staying disciplined as to dosage of PM, I became quite erratic as to schedule and amount. This is probably not a good idea, and my excuses are unconvincing. They revolve largely around my perception that my breasts are becoming noticeable and the season of hot weather (tee shirts, etc.) is approaching. No more easily hiding the girls with compression tees and sweaters! So I stand on the shore of the Rubicon, wanting to jump in but being timid about it. I wade in a few feet, have second thoughts, and step back toward the shore.

The result has been about 3 months of an erratic non-program, taking PM for a few days or a week, then stopping when some life event, fear or concern “freaks me out.” After a few days without PM, I begin to miss the sensations, the swelling buds, and the general sense of well-being PM seems to be giving me, and almost impulsively I start up again.

Many months ago, Flamesabres counseled that it is best to make up one's mind before even starting PM. I took the advice seriously, stopped, pondered, believed I had decided, and began the process. Nonetheless, here I am, dithering.

Am I just particularly mixed up, or does this happen to others?