Now I have some bad news.
A psychiatrist that I have been seeing at the VA for my anxiety meds cancelled the order that the endocrinologist put in for me, because he feels like I am not ready for it. This same psychiatrist professed to me on multiple occasions that he "is not an expert by any means in this subject." I am beyond upset, and absolutely crushed right now. He says that he wants me to live full time in a female role until I start on HRT, and I explained to him that because of the masculine features I have, I don't feel comfortable enough to go out in public in women's clothing. I told him that I love wearing them, but at the same time I feel somewhat torn because I see the male figure that I still present. (Never mind that he completely botches in recording things that I say to him in my medical records.) I told him that I would LOVE to be able to go out in public as a female, but because of my obvious male figure, I can't do it and feel comfortable...hence why I need the HRT first. I even gave him the situation being like him telling me that I have to get this job in order to get a car, but the job that I'm supposed to get requires you to have a car. Why the hell can't he understand that?!
I understand that he may have his reasons, and he is only doing his job, but why can't he grasp the concept of the predicament that I am in right now? I don't even feel like getting out of bed in the morning. I don't want to do anything. I am so devastated right now.
A psychiatrist that I have been seeing at the VA for my anxiety meds cancelled the order that the endocrinologist put in for me, because he feels like I am not ready for it. This same psychiatrist professed to me on multiple occasions that he "is not an expert by any means in this subject." I am beyond upset, and absolutely crushed right now. He says that he wants me to live full time in a female role until I start on HRT, and I explained to him that because of the masculine features I have, I don't feel comfortable enough to go out in public in women's clothing. I told him that I love wearing them, but at the same time I feel somewhat torn because I see the male figure that I still present. (Never mind that he completely botches in recording things that I say to him in my medical records.) I told him that I would LOVE to be able to go out in public as a female, but because of my obvious male figure, I can't do it and feel comfortable...hence why I need the HRT first. I even gave him the situation being like him telling me that I have to get this job in order to get a car, but the job that I'm supposed to get requires you to have a car. Why the hell can't he understand that?!
I understand that he may have his reasons, and he is only doing his job, but why can't he grasp the concept of the predicament that I am in right now? I don't even feel like getting out of bed in the morning. I don't want to do anything. I am so devastated right now.