[undecided]

I can honestly say that one of the most unexpected, but welcome, side effects of my PM program is an almost complete turnaround in my sex life. As a crossdreamer (i.e., one who fantasizes about being the opposite sex), I never felt comfortable in the male sexual role from an early age. Even though I was sexually attracted to women, I didn't experience the normal male arousal at the idea of penetrating a woman. I could, and I did (I have three children), but there was always performance anxiety in the mix, and I often depended on fantasy to maintain a serviceable erection and achieve orgasm. I preferred my wife to be on top and often imagined that I was the one being penetrated. It caused me a lot of shame and worry afterward, and put our sex life pretty much on my wife's schedule, not mine. She sensed my unease and became more and more sexually inhibited, as well.

Some might conclude that I'm gay, but I'm sure that's not the case. I find the male physique unattractive, even ugly, to the point I don't even like my own body. I will admit that I have fantasized about feminine looking shemales, though. Does that make me gay?


CK

Oh wow ... Its like your reading my mind !!

I`ve been happily married for 25 years ( this year ) and have two teenage boys.

Although, instead of gay, I could easily call my self Bi-curious. Before my teens I could have gone either way. I often had to pull myself away, will myself not to take the boy in front of me and kiss him. In my mind, I knew that it was not expectable behavior. I didn't start taking an active interest in girls until @ 16 / 17 years of age, ( The only interest I had in girls was wanting to be one ) most of my friends had already had several girlfriends at this time. There was no sparks for my first few girl friends, I was just doing it because it was expected. I really don't have any interest in guys now, ( Bald, overweight older men do nothing for me. )

However, after saying that ... Although I have not started PM yet, ( I have taken other stuff for a few months, ) Last week we had a visit in our plant, and in walks this guy, well my face felt red and my nipples went hard as heck, I had to walk away. So .. I would defiantly call my self Bi-curious. ( Bald, overweight older men do nothing for me. !! )

I guess I should also add an extra foot note to this ..

I was in my 20`s before I lost my virginity. Sex with my wife over the last few years was hit and miss, First its started with not having sex for a few weeks, then a few months, before too long it was a year. As you can imagine this was hard on our relationship. Now, with the E supplements its got to be the other way around. I`m happy doing it 2, 3, 4 times a week. Defiantly a lot of oral play as well as penetration, occasionally i`m happy just with the oral.