Michelle, honey, I'm sure you've read some of Dr. Anne Vitale's writing about testosterone toxicity. Too much T will cause gender dysphoria in someone with a degree of subconscious female gender. Even just a little. Lowering the T level will usually quiet that mental uneasiness. PM will do that. That was Sammie's point. Many, like you possibly, come to the conclusion that they've been cured of the compulsive sexual behaviors (crossdressing, masturbation, porn, etc.) that they've been experiencing, and want to drop their meds, only to have the symptoms return.
I agree with those who've advised stopping NBE to see if the old dysphoria returns. If it does, you'll know that you are experiencing the effects of testosterone on a partly female brain.
By the way, there's nothing that says having a female side requires you to abandon your male role in life. I certainly do not plan to do so even though, at times, I do catch a bad case of feminine envy. Hey, I'm a crossdreamer, and always will be.
Oh, and please don't go away. I think you can tell that we still want you as a friend, to support you in anyway we can, and know that you are finding peace and comfort in your life.
Clara
I agree with those who've advised stopping NBE to see if the old dysphoria returns. If it does, you'll know that you are experiencing the effects of testosterone on a partly female brain.
By the way, there's nothing that says having a female side requires you to abandon your male role in life. I certainly do not plan to do so even though, at times, I do catch a bad case of feminine envy. Hey, I'm a crossdreamer, and always will be.
Oh, and please don't go away. I think you can tell that we still want you as a friend, to support you in anyway we can, and know that you are finding peace and comfort in your life.
Clara