I've been wondering about other people's experience regarding shifting gender identity, particularly since starting NBE.
I don't know if gender identity (an internal sense of identifying with either the male or the female sex) is fixed or not. After 7 months of doing NBE, I'm coming to the conclusion that it is not fixed.
Then, again, maybe it is fixed subconsciously, but not fixed at a conscious level. Maybe my conscious feeling or understanding of my gender-split personality is tied to an ongoing process of discovery. I mean, for most of my life I've identified consciously as a male. The idea that people, including myself, have both a male and female sides sounded plausible in the abstract, but I couldn't relate to it directly in my own life. My dabbling in crossdressing and enjoying fantasies of growing breasts was, to me, a sexual fetish, not a reflection of who I was gender-wise.
When first I discovered that I was a crossdreamer (a crossdreamer is a gender-variant person who is aroused by fantasies of being or becoming the opposite sex), and first came out to my wife about my nature, I told her that my gender identity was 70% male and 30% female. Today, I would update that to closer to 50/50. Was it always 50/50 and I simply wasn't aware of it, or has NBE, and the effects of estrogen, caused the shift?
If the latter, wonder if I should expect a further shifting of my gender identity. Could I reach the point where my female side begins to dominate?
All thoughts and points of view are welcome.
Clara
I don't know if gender identity (an internal sense of identifying with either the male or the female sex) is fixed or not. After 7 months of doing NBE, I'm coming to the conclusion that it is not fixed.
Then, again, maybe it is fixed subconsciously, but not fixed at a conscious level. Maybe my conscious feeling or understanding of my gender-split personality is tied to an ongoing process of discovery. I mean, for most of my life I've identified consciously as a male. The idea that people, including myself, have both a male and female sides sounded plausible in the abstract, but I couldn't relate to it directly in my own life. My dabbling in crossdressing and enjoying fantasies of growing breasts was, to me, a sexual fetish, not a reflection of who I was gender-wise.
When first I discovered that I was a crossdreamer (a crossdreamer is a gender-variant person who is aroused by fantasies of being or becoming the opposite sex), and first came out to my wife about my nature, I told her that my gender identity was 70% male and 30% female. Today, I would update that to closer to 50/50. Was it always 50/50 and I simply wasn't aware of it, or has NBE, and the effects of estrogen, caused the shift?
If the latter, wonder if I should expect a further shifting of my gender identity. Could I reach the point where my female side begins to dominate?
All thoughts and points of view are welcome.
Clara