24-05-2014, 01:09 PM
Pansy, I can so easily relate to so much of what you wrote. The dressing and purging cycles have plagued most of us I think, along with most of the same thoughts and feelings you describe. The fact that so many people have dealt with almost the identical set of patterns makes me firmer every day in my belief that all of this is something we are built with from the womb.
And PM also reduced or eliminated my wanting to dress...for awhile. But here is where we diverge. After three years of PM and three years of almost never dressing, the urge came crashing back and has not abated at all. Part of that, I expect, is to do with my no longer fighting it but rather fully embracing who I believe I am.
You and I began here around the same time and have been at this a long time. Has the desire to dress and present as female really gone from you totally in this time?
And PM also reduced or eliminated my wanting to dress...for awhile. But here is where we diverge. After three years of PM and three years of almost never dressing, the urge came crashing back and has not abated at all. Part of that, I expect, is to do with my no longer fighting it but rather fully embracing who I believe I am.
You and I began here around the same time and have been at this a long time. Has the desire to dress and present as female really gone from you totally in this time?