[AnnieBL]

Thanks for the support girls, it means a lot. The gender specialist appointment is more of finding somebody to talk too, to sound my feelings of to. I have some work to do over the next few weeks, I need to write my feeling down so any questions that come up, I'm going to be able to answer. One question that my Dr asked today,( and the one asked by the last GD Dr many years ago) deep inside, do I feel female? My answer, no ... I feel like me. Its just my body that's wrong.
Another reason for writing stuff down, I need to find the time and courage to sit down with my DW, she really deserves to know.

The way the visit went, the Dr made me feel very much at ease. I did explain I was not looking to transition at this late stage in my life. I had a good long talk, afterwards he told me about a patient he has seen reciently ( in his 70`s ) and our stories are very similar .. ( like most of the girls here ).

You express it all so well - and being myself in my seventies and in the midst of sorting things out with my own DW, I can really relate to what you say. I'd only add that it was extremely helpful to have written it all down - well, most of it - in advance of my own latest attempt to come clean, and what a relief it is now that we are able to discuss it all freely. While the 'woman trapped in a man's body' line has never really resonated with me, I do find my physical body and the societal expectations it produces are not in accord with the me that I am and struggle to understand. I only wish that we could track down a gender therapist in this neck of the woods.