20-06-2014, 12:17 PM
Well ... A quick update ..
I had the " Talk " with the wife last night. As can be expected, it was a little tense. She rightly feels betrayed, lied to, and let down. I am not the person she thought she was in love with. She expressed feeling that if I start looking and dressing female, she would not be able to handle it. It was a civil discussion, were I was able to tell her some stuff from my past that she had not heard about, that part hurt her the most, that I had kept this secret from her all these years. Although, admittedly she would not have married me if she know the whole issue from the beginning. so now she feels I trapped her.
In one hand I feel relieved that I have told her, in another I am apprehensive for the future. Overall I feel very self centered and selfish for bringing my wife into my problem.
Im sure that you girls that have gone through the same process know exactly how I feel right now, needless to say, i`m presently at work but my mind is definitely not on the game.
We normally text each other most mornings, especially if I take the motorcycle in, she did that this morning very concerned that I got here ok, and she was thinking of me.
If there was a pill to make this feeling of "wrong" go away, I would take it. My marriage, and my family and their happiness is more important than anything else.
You girls are the best, I have a strong suspicion I will get more help and understanding from this board than I will from any psychiatrist.
I had the " Talk " with the wife last night. As can be expected, it was a little tense. She rightly feels betrayed, lied to, and let down. I am not the person she thought she was in love with. She expressed feeling that if I start looking and dressing female, she would not be able to handle it. It was a civil discussion, were I was able to tell her some stuff from my past that she had not heard about, that part hurt her the most, that I had kept this secret from her all these years. Although, admittedly she would not have married me if she know the whole issue from the beginning. so now she feels I trapped her.
In one hand I feel relieved that I have told her, in another I am apprehensive for the future. Overall I feel very self centered and selfish for bringing my wife into my problem.
Im sure that you girls that have gone through the same process know exactly how I feel right now, needless to say, i`m presently at work but my mind is definitely not on the game.
We normally text each other most mornings, especially if I take the motorcycle in, she did that this morning very concerned that I got here ok, and she was thinking of me.
If there was a pill to make this feeling of "wrong" go away, I would take it. My marriage, and my family and their happiness is more important than anything else.
You girls are the best, I have a strong suspicion I will get more help and understanding from this board than I will from any psychiatrist.