[AnnieBL]

I guess I'm just not as outgoing as you lot are. I'm going to clutch onto Sammie's leg and hide behind her mostly.

Dont worry, sis, I'm bringing you some beta blockers. Lol

May be I should bring along my own supply of left over beta blockers for when my own present euphoria gives way to nerves. My wife keeps telling me that I am acting totally out of character and that SCC is the kind of thing that I would normally be far too much of a shrinking violet to even contemplate , but she hopes however that I do go so that I'll realize how much I hated it. Notwithstanding, she is organizing and producing my wardrobe to such an extent that I am beginning to wonder how much input I am going to get , while she is also looking for counseling to reconcile her own internal self-contradictory attitudes towards my gender issues.

There is one thing to bear in mind about beta blockers, as well as their known off-label ability to help with anxiety, and which may be good or bad depending on one's outlook. Abi Drew reckoned that high doses of them over an extended period were a big factor in my own loss of male function; so they may be an alternative or supplement to other AAs. Following up on a previous post, I'm not even sure that I wouldn't like to share a room, if only for additional mutual moral support in this adventure, quite apart from practical support in doing up zippers and making clothing choices bearing in mind my zero CD experience. So if there is any one too late to get a room in the hotel or who needs to save a bit of money, here is an opportunity.

A complication I have now on the clothes sizing front, and which gives me some fellow feeling with some others in the group who seem to be evolving fast in various ways, is that I am trying to correct my diastasis, which involves wearing 24/7 a 'splint', which is a specialized (and rather uncomfortable) form of cincher, associated with an exercise program. The first few days produced remarkable results, and completely changed the shape of my belly from a barrel to slight beginnings of an hourglass. The big bulge above my navel is gone (at least temporarily), and my 'natural waist', which had disappeared as a result of the diastasis, has reappeared, decreasing my waistline by three inches with possibly more to come. Unfortunately the bulge above the navel has now moved below the navel.

I don't think I'm really getting cold feet, but I'm very willing to seek any support I can get - I'm a bit too big to hide behind anyone's leg (even the rhino's) or skirt.