[GoneGirl]

Hi Clara

I usually get home from work and get dressed and just relax. I rarely get turned on by dressing anymore. Today I had two full control slips show up in the mail and I was excited and ran into my house to try one on, but the excitement was not sexual. I bought two because they were a great deal and I needed both colors. At the moment I really do not try to get off at night because it does not work. My thing only seems to work any more in the morning when my T is higher. I really do not understand the sexual side of things. If I was not a big male I think that I would want to transition. If everything was purely sexual why did I want to dress and be a girl when I was five years old? I think being on NBE and having my girl clothes as reduced my stress and anxiety about the whole thing.

Based on your self-description, I'd say you're transgender. Spontaneous sexual arousal is a consequence of testosterone. It makes sense it would be stronger in the AM. Having been plagued by it all my adult life to the when I started herbal HRT, I don't miss it at all now. Sex and intimacy are one for me now. It takes a loving comment or a gentle touch to excite the fire. The 'blue pill' overcomes any loss of virility when my DW needs the big O.

Clara