03-07-2014, 09:34 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-07-2014, 10:47 PM by PleasantlyFascinated.)
Hi Plutonian and Cheapskate.
It seems possible I might have some things in common with you. I've never been upset at being male, far from it. I'm happy I'm male. However, it's more like I also want to be female, but it always expressed for me as WANTING a female.
While I've always privately feared that I am just barely man enough (even though no one else has ever appeared to have that opinion of me), I never really paid attention to if I secretly wanted to BE a female. Until recently. 6 years in a sexless marriage can produce some huge adaptations in a very gradual way.
I don't know about you, but I can get a lot of private mileage from a little harmless self feminization. I don't ever desire anything that could prove biologically emasculating to me. It sounds like I want to be both, and that's pretty much true, just not to be both at the same time.
I would welcome a flood of estrogen and a conversion to female, IF I could also turn around at any time and purge myself of the E, and become a walking testosterone factory with sinews of iron.
Since this is not realistic, I've worked with weights to over-develop my pectoral muscles, and any other places I can target to accent a more female type of musculature. I love silky smooth legs and painted toenails. It's all reversible. I thought there would be no harm in the very merest amount of progesterone and estriol cream on my chest area. It gives me a delicious feminine feel at bedtime. Maybe I have kept it up for too long, because though I admit to liking some new unpremeditated physical results, I worry that the results should be reversible.
I'm wondering if there isn't some small sub-group of cross-genders that feel just as I do.
It seems possible I might have some things in common with you. I've never been upset at being male, far from it. I'm happy I'm male. However, it's more like I also want to be female, but it always expressed for me as WANTING a female.
While I've always privately feared that I am just barely man enough (even though no one else has ever appeared to have that opinion of me), I never really paid attention to if I secretly wanted to BE a female. Until recently. 6 years in a sexless marriage can produce some huge adaptations in a very gradual way.
I don't know about you, but I can get a lot of private mileage from a little harmless self feminization. I don't ever desire anything that could prove biologically emasculating to me. It sounds like I want to be both, and that's pretty much true, just not to be both at the same time.
I would welcome a flood of estrogen and a conversion to female, IF I could also turn around at any time and purge myself of the E, and become a walking testosterone factory with sinews of iron.
Since this is not realistic, I've worked with weights to over-develop my pectoral muscles, and any other places I can target to accent a more female type of musculature. I love silky smooth legs and painted toenails. It's all reversible. I thought there would be no harm in the very merest amount of progesterone and estriol cream on my chest area. It gives me a delicious feminine feel at bedtime. Maybe I have kept it up for too long, because though I admit to liking some new unpremeditated physical results, I worry that the results should be reversible.
I'm wondering if there isn't some small sub-group of cross-genders that feel just as I do.