[myboobs]

Hello -

I am a 57 year old male who has discovered this site in roundabout way. I am completely at ease with my sexuality… except I’ve recently been trying to figure out what it is - in comparison to others.
I’ve just found out that I’m unusual.

I cannot be gay, since I have never had an erotic feeling about another male for a moment in my entire life, and suspect I never could for any amount of trying.
It appears that I cannot be bi-sexual, for the same reason.
I like being male. Only… I also want to be female. I adore the female body so much that I want to have one.

Most of my life, having a female mate provided to me the object of my adoration. But, being now into my 6th year of a sexless marriage, I have become aware of an adaptation I’ve made. My wife of 20 years developed a hostility towards sex which is irreconcilable. So, instead of seeking divorce, I embrace my inner female.

This has not produced any major personal gender identity struggle that I’m aware of. When I’m feeling sexual and feminine at the same time, I totally want to be in the receiving role. Yet, other than for male genitals, I cannot find a male body attractive, let alone a typically male ego. Go figure.

Which brings me to this site. I have yet to find any other forum that seems to fit my particular slant. Everything else I’ve seen about feminization has to do with “forced” or “dominant” or sissification as a form of degradation or subservience. That is definitely not my world. Fem means love, and love means respect - in my world.

And yes, I am SO tempted to grow breasts. I want to be female in private, and male in public.

Breasts, however, could prove mighty inconvenient for me most of the time, when I present as all-male.
Nevertheless, Life-Flo makes an interesting progesterone/estriol cream that I just can’t resist rubbing on my tits each night.
After a year or more, I notice I have gotten steady breast growth. And, instead of getting scared and stopping, I admire my titties in the mirror and tell myself “just a little more, it’s reversible”. I don’t know, maybe it’s not. Now, to add to my folly, and to my private pleasures, I’ve started using Kangzhu breast enlargers and a cupping kit to lavish upon my nipples (and other special places). I’m now aware of my breasts all of the time. They’re growing faster, and I’m not sure I want to stop.

It seems I fit in, at this site.

i can relate to that