Thank you, Samantha for replying to my post. It helped. I live in Birmingham Alabama and don’t know if there are any gender therapists around here but there could be. I have been crossdressing ever since I knew the difference between the clothing of boy and girl (about 4) and wanted to be a girl about as long. Crossdressing is not sexual for me it, it used to have a calming effect on me. Let’s just say one too many family freak outs made me ashamed of my crossdressing and it became stressful at times but I couldn't stop. I tried religion and the military but the desire to be female never left. Every girlfriend I have had except one knew about my crossdressing (though that is a very short list I have only had 3 girlfriends) and said they accepted it until I would try to talk to them about it, then it was “I can’t handle this” and I would have to hide it again and try to beat back the feelings. I do hate having to lie to my wife about it but she takes it personally that I want to be a woman. She says it makes her feel like less of a woman even though I was doing it LONG before I ever met her. Through all the years I have been around there has not been a period of more than a few days that I haven’t prayed to wake up and be a woman. But it doesn't work that way.
And that is the short of it.
Emily Ann
And that is the short of it.
Emily Ann