08-07-2014, 06:55 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-07-2014, 07:01 PM by PleasantlyFascinated.)
The unexpected male niche on this site is proving to be the best resource I’ve ever found. It is helping me clarify a few things for myself.
Though, I begin to fear that I have very little business in posting here, amongst genuine gender identity pioneers. I suspect I am a mere dabbler in self feminization, and do so only as a result of thwarted sexual expression. I do not want to bore or annoy individuals who have very real issues, of which I am not mindful, and probably do not suffer. But, I want to find a circle of kindred spirits, and would like to believe I can somewhat find that here. I admit to hoping for guidance from the open minded, accepting individuals who post here, since it is unlikely that any other group of people would even have the capacity to understand me.
Though recognizing I’ve always possessed a small level of transgender fascination, it has always been some sort of recessive trait, requiring little if anything in the way of expression.
Hence, I’ve had little need to determine its underlying source or meaning. The long-term repressed frustration I have, from living in a sexless marriage, has now brought my latent predilection to the forefront. I now have a side to me that I don’t really know what I want to do with. I don’t want to stifle it, I want to celebrate it, but how?
Yes, I am reaching out for encouragement and suggestions, since I have overdone the living in self-imposed isolation, within a very dysfunctional marriage. For me, anything worth doing is worth overdoing. My attempts to sort out my life and my unfortunate marriage without the support of others has been no exception. I’ve taken social isolation beyond where I probably should have, and now I need to reach out, before my life is over.
Though, I begin to fear that I have very little business in posting here, amongst genuine gender identity pioneers. I suspect I am a mere dabbler in self feminization, and do so only as a result of thwarted sexual expression. I do not want to bore or annoy individuals who have very real issues, of which I am not mindful, and probably do not suffer. But, I want to find a circle of kindred spirits, and would like to believe I can somewhat find that here. I admit to hoping for guidance from the open minded, accepting individuals who post here, since it is unlikely that any other group of people would even have the capacity to understand me.
Though recognizing I’ve always possessed a small level of transgender fascination, it has always been some sort of recessive trait, requiring little if anything in the way of expression.
Hence, I’ve had little need to determine its underlying source or meaning. The long-term repressed frustration I have, from living in a sexless marriage, has now brought my latent predilection to the forefront. I now have a side to me that I don’t really know what I want to do with. I don’t want to stifle it, I want to celebrate it, but how?
Yes, I am reaching out for encouragement and suggestions, since I have overdone the living in self-imposed isolation, within a very dysfunctional marriage. For me, anything worth doing is worth overdoing. My attempts to sort out my life and my unfortunate marriage without the support of others has been no exception. I’ve taken social isolation beyond where I probably should have, and now I need to reach out, before my life is over.