11-07-2014, 12:42 AM
Annie,
You certainly are a careful and thoughtful person. Your wife, should she ever read your posts will realise that you love her and have her best interests at heart, whilst saying that I do agree with Janet , some things are best left unsaid. I have not volunteered any info to my wife as I know it will be twisted in some way and used against me.
I must admit reading yours and Clara's points in particular and not forgetting our dear friend Janet, we all seem to need the assistance of our specialist GP or Endocrinologist to help map out our route or path to gaining the peace we are desiring.
All these posts have served to prove to me that I gave in far too easily when I got such an adverse reaction from my DW. You may remember from my earlier post that I ended up cancelling future appointments which pleased my wife but depressed me.
Over the last few weeks I have felt depressed or at least sad that I am locked into occasional CD'ing and my journey has come to a stop or brick wall.
I have decided (as of tonight) the current road block is to be dismantled and I intend to resurrect the GP's appointments and seek a new counselling.
I am not a confrontational person but feel that if I do not pursue my desired path then I will see little to look forward to in my latter years. My DW does not understand the mental pain I endure on a daily basis. Many of you have been so very supportive and offered very good and sound advice, which I may add I have tried to administer, but has had limited or no beneficial effect that I can equate to.
There are occasions and relationships that seem destined not to be united when trying to overcome certain difficulties, mine is one of those. If I was to accept the occasional CD'ing and not desire anything further then NO PROBLEM ! BUT and it's a big BUT , I want to progress way beyond that.
As things stand, when I read others talking about transitioning my heart races and suddenly feel lost and envious all in one second. You girls that have managed to get your SO to understand that fill me with so much passion I don't know how to store it.
It is getting very late here in the UK and I will have to retire for the night before my dear wife moans about me staying up on the forum until the early hours of the morning again.
Please keep this thread rolling, I am very interested in all that is said, it is helping more than you could imagine.
Good night dear friends, you are much loved and respected by me more than you know.
Love
Heather Xxx
You certainly are a careful and thoughtful person. Your wife, should she ever read your posts will realise that you love her and have her best interests at heart, whilst saying that I do agree with Janet , some things are best left unsaid. I have not volunteered any info to my wife as I know it will be twisted in some way and used against me.
I must admit reading yours and Clara's points in particular and not forgetting our dear friend Janet, we all seem to need the assistance of our specialist GP or Endocrinologist to help map out our route or path to gaining the peace we are desiring.
All these posts have served to prove to me that I gave in far too easily when I got such an adverse reaction from my DW. You may remember from my earlier post that I ended up cancelling future appointments which pleased my wife but depressed me.
Over the last few weeks I have felt depressed or at least sad that I am locked into occasional CD'ing and my journey has come to a stop or brick wall.
I have decided (as of tonight) the current road block is to be dismantled and I intend to resurrect the GP's appointments and seek a new counselling.
I am not a confrontational person but feel that if I do not pursue my desired path then I will see little to look forward to in my latter years. My DW does not understand the mental pain I endure on a daily basis. Many of you have been so very supportive and offered very good and sound advice, which I may add I have tried to administer, but has had limited or no beneficial effect that I can equate to.
There are occasions and relationships that seem destined not to be united when trying to overcome certain difficulties, mine is one of those. If I was to accept the occasional CD'ing and not desire anything further then NO PROBLEM ! BUT and it's a big BUT , I want to progress way beyond that.
As things stand, when I read others talking about transitioning my heart races and suddenly feel lost and envious all in one second. You girls that have managed to get your SO to understand that fill me with so much passion I don't know how to store it.
It is getting very late here in the UK and I will have to retire for the night before my dear wife moans about me staying up on the forum until the early hours of the morning again.
Please keep this thread rolling, I am very interested in all that is said, it is helping more than you could imagine.
Good night dear friends, you are much loved and respected by me more than you know.
Love
Heather Xxx