14-07-2014, 06:17 PM
Of course, none of the changes I mentioned came about without a lot of tears, fears, doubts, and support from friends here. Certainly the most emotionally traumatic event was coming out to my wife of 32 years. For years I kept my secrets from her for fear of rejection and break up. Many of us here are going through that same rough period. I've read that only 20% of transgender marriages stay intact. There's every reason to be worried, and I was.
Another thing I struggled with during the first 6 months or so was the constant tug-of-war between my male and female personalities. I would go along fine as Clara and, suddenly, have severe bouts of doubt, depression, and anger. I kept a log of my feelings since the first day. Rereading some of it today brought back memories of those troubled periods which had begun to fade from my consciousness. The support I got from my wife, people here, and just putting my thoughts down in the log made it possible to get through those bad times.
Clara
Another thing I struggled with during the first 6 months or so was the constant tug-of-war between my male and female personalities. I would go along fine as Clara and, suddenly, have severe bouts of doubt, depression, and anger. I kept a log of my feelings since the first day. Rereading some of it today brought back memories of those troubled periods which had begun to fade from my consciousness. The support I got from my wife, people here, and just putting my thoughts down in the log made it possible to get through those bad times.
Clara