[GoneGirl]

So many of us who are trans experience improved mental harmony after a few weeks or months, on PM. The effect is unmistakable. Sometimes I wonder if I have a male gender identity at all. If I did it has shrunk down to almost nothing like my testicles...hee hee. All that remains are the habits, conditioning, and knowledge that were imprinted on my brain from living as a male for a life time. That's not the same as male identity, though, and I suspect that some of that will fade over time, too, if I live long enough...lol. That's my one regret -- taking so long to find myself. I feel like Nelson Mandela getting out of prison after years of incarceration. Now I have to make up for lost time.

Clara