15-07-2014, 02:54 PM
(15-07-2014, 02:03 PM)Samantha Rogers Wrote: All I know is this...most of my life I was wearing a straitjacket...self imposed. A set of coded instructions set to control me and fit me into patterns ranging from clothing to speech...movement, what I could laugh at , like, dislike, and so on through every detail of my existence...all to make absolutely certain not one tiny fragment of what I presented to the world would appear as anything but male and so not be subject to doubts.
Now that I no longer care, I feel so incredibly liberated. And discovering all that I have missed is wonderful, eye opening and illuminating. Some things are very different, as in now feeling free to dance. But other areas are just an extension of tastes I already had only now free to explore fully...
...Still, the person I am slowly becoming is certainly female. Just authentically grounded now and not an impersonation of a lie.
Bam!!!!!!! You NAILED it for me too Sammie (minus the stuff about fashion and dancing). I love the infinite color and variety of clothing made for women as well as all the adornments. We agree about the flower crap though. Yuck!