[Lenneth]

there was a time when I thought I would have no choice but eventually transition regardless of the heavy cost (the GD was so great). The funny thing was that while I tried to combat the GD by increasing testosterone, the increased T actually accelerated the GD dramatically. I was relieved when the PM caused it to subside.

I have tried to stop or reduce the PM and find that the GD comes roaring back (which in turn causes me to resume the PM in search of feminization). I guess it's fair to say I am "addicted" to the PM at this point and stopping isn't an option.

I'm not really sure what I'm going to do at this point!

very similar to my situation misty, when I go off of PM the GD comes back in such a heavy manner someone may as well have dropped 10 tons of bricks on top of me.

also, it has oddly either gotten worse or I have lost the tolerance I had built up to it over the years, not sure which it is.