[GoneGirl]

Hey, Robin. I know the feeling. It's like a volcano. For years, nothing much happens, then signs start to appear -- tremors, fissures, steam. Pressure builds and the warnings go out. In the final stages things happen so fast, it's hard to catch a breath.

I'm at the point where there is nothing holding me back now except money and logistics.

Check out this post by me from 8 months ago:

I don't think I'm transsexual, but I've heard tell that taking hormones (and herbs that have a similar effect) can be a slippery slope.

The way I look at it is NBE *is* transitioning in the sense that I am feminizing my body (and mind) to an extent that could disrupt my life in both positive as well as negative ways. The problem is not knowing a priori the long term consequences either way.

At this point, I'm going for it because the positives do outweigh what I see as the negatives, but if the scales should shift will I be able to adjust?

I would be quite happy with breast development up to point. I'm not sure how far I can or want to go, but I've told my wife (truthfully) that I won't ever be presenting as female in public (risky assertion?). That means being able to hide my breasts in public. She's already bought me a sports bra without me asking!

The devil I don't know is: Will I be able to stop growth at some point, go on a maintenance dose of PM, and still keep the mental benefits? IIRC, Flame, that you found it necessary to *increase* your PM dosage to maintain the "brain rewiring" you desire. That's fine as long as you don't mind continued breast development (assuming you've not yet reached full size). Otherwise, a difficult choice would have to be made.

Then too, I might also discover down the road that I *am* transsexual.

Yeah, it's scary when I think about it. It's like I'm driving into a thick fog -- a thick pink fog.

Clara Kay

Surprise! I AM a transsexual after all.

Clara