[RobinMurphy]

As for me I was telling other children when I was five or six years old that I wanted to be a girl, and this got to my parents but they never said anything. I was always being caught cross-dressing after the age of 10 and I was told by my parents that it basically just crossdressing. The voices in my head that told me a wanted to be a woman never stopped. There was a sexual part to dressing for me maybe into my thirties, but today I'm never sexual turned by dressing. I think that I have bought so much clothes recently is that I could never really have them before. I just like to come home from work and put on a dress which is no problem because I live alone. I have been in denial about depth of my GD, and this has led to be not really caring about anything in my personal life. I have been drinking to much, not going to doctors, and being overweight. I spent most of last week in the hospital for a leg problem that was likely cause by NBE in connection with being unhealthy. I just did not want to deal with it. I have quit PM for now. My own GD I don't really understand so it is hard for me to judge other peoples. I'm done not dealing with things and I hope to go see a therapist this week or next. I looking forward to SCC and meeting everyone. Robin.