[Jaded Jade]

How long have I been following the board? About two years, found one of AbiDrew's pages after some random internet searching. For about one year I have been sure That I had GD to figure out. It is amazing the degree that one can hide such things from themselves and yet still know them... lol

As to other details on how I look, I am six feet tall and about 37, once I lose all the weight I think my face will look pretty neutral, which in my mind is a good thing, even if it is simultaneously potentially a complication.

While I might want to permakill the beard sometimes, it certainly makes stay on the masculine side of the line waaaay easier. I just wish there was a non-daily, but non-permanent way to be rid of it for a week or ten. Because shaving it every morning really sucks.

As to some of the good advice from this forum, just seeing a variety of people handling non-binary issues was a big deal for me, some of the other sites are very AMA-party line MTF all the way is the only way. And at no-E, low-E and High-E, all three, I might vary in happiness and such, but I am at this point consistently clear to me that NB/MTA is what is right for me even in an absolute sense, and certainly since I am married and don't want to mess that up.

Though enough NBE especially BO and that may shift from what I have read...

That said my Darling Wife is very open minded, and thanks to some of the good advice here, I made sure to talk to her early. She says she'd even be able to handle MTF, but would not prefer that. Both of us want me functional, and as I have said, MTA is what I think I want and need.

- JJ