02-10-2014, 10:58 PM
Thanks for sharing Kari and Samantha. I have read a lot of your posts believe it or not. I am coming up on 42 myself and I think you spelled it out pretty good for me Kari. I do feel like I have lost a lot of opportunity and yesterday it just came crashing down on me. I have been off PM for a couple weeks now and maybe that contributes to this a little bit.
It is weird that you mention it, but quite a few people do actually think i am pretty negative at work. Even though I dont really think I am malicious, I may be lashing out a bit. It is good to hear I am in the same boat in some regards as far as age and the feeling that I can never go back. I am probably due for some adjustment on expectations of what can be accomplished.
Over the past month I have been even contemplating facial surgery to reduce my brow and nose. I get to thinking about complications and how I would ever explain something like that since I do work in surgery. I know what the healing would be like. Makes me wish for a magic wand! lol I am not sure if I could ever justify doing that though, because of cost and I am scared of a bad outcome. I try and do my eyebrows and feel I am limited in that because i am too scared of what people think. There is even more things like having a shaved chest in the locker room, swimming etc. I just keep it bottled up...... Kind of frustrating and makes things hard.
Anyhow, Thanks for listening and sharing your thoughts on it, it helps to feel not so alone.
It is weird that you mention it, but quite a few people do actually think i am pretty negative at work. Even though I dont really think I am malicious, I may be lashing out a bit. It is good to hear I am in the same boat in some regards as far as age and the feeling that I can never go back. I am probably due for some adjustment on expectations of what can be accomplished.
Over the past month I have been even contemplating facial surgery to reduce my brow and nose. I get to thinking about complications and how I would ever explain something like that since I do work in surgery. I know what the healing would be like. Makes me wish for a magic wand! lol I am not sure if I could ever justify doing that though, because of cost and I am scared of a bad outcome. I try and do my eyebrows and feel I am limited in that because i am too scared of what people think. There is even more things like having a shaved chest in the locker room, swimming etc. I just keep it bottled up...... Kind of frustrating and makes things hard.
Anyhow, Thanks for listening and sharing your thoughts on it, it helps to feel not so alone.